Kaleidoscopic

2009-06-07T23:19:00.004+08:00

sometimes dont you get the feeling of the old when you meet up with frens. well. just for the scout & guides camp, i got that feeling. missed that feeling of which our lvl scouters will get together and wreck hell. haha. but we din have yisen and xiaohan in this camp.. or not it will really b a reunion..

well. for once i think i am talking more liao. hope thats a good thing. SCOUTS RAWWK. _|_ yisen's view on scouts. SCOUTS GOT LIFE ONE. :D hahaha. hmm. lets hope he dun go arnd viewing ppl's blog. and jiale's post on the camp is dam hilarious. buey tahan.

ACCOMPLISHMENT : I managed to divert the attack of the Alien during phototaking session! yeahh! EAT THAT MANN! anyway.. jun wei is a good subsitute. :D dun aim me can liao. lucky i pull scout teacher sit beside me sia. AND I NVR WEAR UNI. even though i got bring. den no need sit beside her. ahaha. oh ya. long time no blog. must post a classic photo xD

This is the one i divert *censored* to. :D it nearly came down upon me lah. dont u agree the photo look nicer this way?

this is the retarded photo. count in acending order from the left.

hais. the memories. oh well. theres a bbq on 26 june. will be seeing everyone there then. :D

2009-02-11T20:15:00.001+08:00

Conflicting CCA theories

Dragonboat, Judo or House Exco.

2009-01-13T15:55:00.000+08:00

finally had the mood to post smth..

Sec1 Camp. Weeeell. at least i went hype mode, aha. E2 IS SO DEAD LAA. but at least theres effort to become alive. lol. 1st day was practically fine.. e2 guys went up the stage for the duno wad lame game.. haiyo. den aftnoon is rushhr + hall games. took 1e5 den, and.. well.. the guys are easily distracted, but the gals are rather cooperative. zzz. duno understand how they got 1st la. must b aft i take their class den they kena influenced den get 1st de... AND THE RUSH HR GROUP BY CHEIH LING AND KAIWEN.. USE ME SIA. make me dam tired.. the gers dam heong, choing me de. i thought at least they will shy shy den i sure step their balloon until all gone. WTHH

den suddenly, we got like 1 hr to teach e2 CHEER+skit. WTH?! where got enough time la. den i duno how we ended up teaching them the ZH cheer also.. lol...

CAMPFIRE.. was.. uhh.. up in a smoke? the fan overheated and the campfire lost its light. =x it was fun la, but not as fun compared to scouts & guides campfire.. and NO ONE DID THOSE CAMPFIRE CHEER WIF ME DE LORR..ok la got. but not very enthu like de..haiss

LUCKY SEC1 got to slp at 12.15++. while i had to GO DOWN AND DO DEBRIEF den slp at 1.30am. and randy still complain in his blog. lol.

2nd day was more dull, cause of the obvious lack of energy that was predominant throughout the level. some siao facil slp onli 1 hr sia. winner. morning got some course or wad.. well, at least yt and junie slp like a PIG.. while beatrite and i listened attentively. the activities dam interesting la! especially the CEO thing.. let us see betrayal within the cohort O.O

aftnoon hall games i took e3 this time.. jianan a bit fed up wif me LOL. i made their class well, lost 2 match...EH THE BOMBING THING REALLY GOT SUCH THING DE OK. POINT OTHER CLASS DEN SHOUT ANOTHER CLASS NAME! thats call a Fake Attack. but no one gets it. wth... and the blindfold shaddap game.. actually is jianan and meiyun cheated.. they are not supposed to help.. LOL.

den.. well, did some line catching, which i helped E3 to win by making use of loopholes. EH JIANAN I GOT HELP UR CLASS HORR.. den some cheers.. Gako the Frog, Eppo eh Tai tai, Bumblebee, etc etc. dun think they will rmb lol. den they give out some prizes.. ~~ and its time to go home. and thats when e2 have the most energy.. END

Monday 12 jan 2009. LOVE DESMOND CHONG. last yr WHERE GOT SEND PPL OUT CAUSE OF HAIR LONG? zzz. and i thought we are GRADUATES LIAO. so actually we are even allowed to wear home clothes in lor. the fact that we EVEN WORE SCH U means we give the sch face liao hor.. still send us out... got 11 points. AND HMT D7. PIANG. NO -2. but JC no need take MTL.. so i still happy la.. now the most obvious choice is SAJC.. see how it goes now..

2008-12-10T12:01:00.006+08:00

Yeah. and this marks the end of the strenous camp, National patrol camp 2008

it was OMGWTFBBQ. well, it wasnt as tought as i anticipated it, but well, still was tiring. argh.

26 December 2008 : Day 0
moved all the logistic stuff there. and i have to b the message deliverer. zzz. run frm the pioneering campsite to the camp-campsite (sounds incorrect)... and my TIRES are gone. zzz. sometimes its stressful communicating wif Trick (slient T, pronounced as rick, i think, or its T.Rick) the campsite was a pig pen. mud all arnd, especially wif the accompanied shit smell. it wasnt that obvious, but if u smell the mud at a 10cm range, the smell was ovewhelming. the reason of why i knew that was i accidentally brushed my fingers against a Mayflower scout de shoe when he was tying smth on Day 1, and the smell was there for 1 day.zzz. well. at least it went pretty smoothly. NPC staff members stay in AIR-CON RM! for 1 day only. ahahaha. they book in today, while we had a last day of enjoyment.

27 December 2008 : Day 1
the long awaited day arrived. took all the forgotten logistics that we din bring ytd, and went up the bus, which was : a tire, 50 extra broomsticks, rag, makeshift dustbin lid, a box of rope, and some wierd wierd stuff like ENO POWDER. the trip, was melodious. =x the accompaniment of christmas carols like Last Christmas and the Oldies. xD

the campsite was the same as b4. except it rained the night b4, which made the mud even more enjoyable. yay! rested all we can, and gathered for flagbreak at the NPH. Flagbreak. a concept forgotten since the handover of the leadership roles to the sec 3. zz. and guess what yisen? HUI KANG WAS THE FLAGBREAKER! u ought to feel proud man! xD the whole place was damn serious, except for the leaders infront talking amongst them self. -.-

and so, the competition started at 1.30pm. or so it was for the other campers, who received their logistics provided WAY BEFORE THE FLAGBREAK, where we had to collect AFTER THE FLAGBREAK, wasting our precious time and manpower.zzz. and the staff is the best among scouts? urrgh.

Problem no. 1 : The marking of the poles was further erased by the mud.
WoohoO! now we are in deep shit. began guessing which poles are which, which we wasted even more time. our shed was only up before dinner, which other campers had began to even build their gadgets. and finished their tents. we didnt. z. so i had to rush the brasha (how do u spell it?) while jiale and ian cooked. uhh.. well.. the chicken was stil frozen, and the cooked it, so it was like OW from ian, and me when i finished the brasha and went over to help them... =.=

the sub-subcamp-chief was an ang moh, but he was pretty nice. not like the subcamp 5 chief who was practically shouting FALL IN every 30 mins. ahaha. poor subcamp 5. ours was 4, and it was between paradise and hell. paradise was 2 campsites to the left, where the soil was WOW. and our soil is also WOW, with the sacarsm included.

and so, passed the 1st day.

29 December 2008 : Day 2
5am awoke. planning to pia the gadgets, but.. uhh.. too tired. so like didnt do anything, and slacked in the brasha,until we were late for 6am PT. the PT was just stretching, soo.. not too bad. subcamp 5 was running through sarimbun la. returned to our subcamp, and INSPECTION. i do inspection, jiale do gadgets + cleanliness.. but still didnt turn out pretty well..urgh. so every morn we did inspection and didnt turn out well. dun wan write abt inspection ever again. zzz.

1300: Backswoodman cooking + Orienteering test
ok, so me ian liangming benjamin keith in backswoodman and jiale george haffner in orienteering. Backswoodsman was semi-rigged in our favour. cause we have staff inside, and honye samuel joshua placed leftovers from the 1st test around our campsite, so we had *external help*. was stressful at first, but it was ok at the end. Keith use 1 matchstick to light the fire sia! not like girlguides who use lighter. =x oh ya, the team beside zhonghua used bench poles for the stands, in the end the benchpoles burnt and the fire was uncontrollable. -.- they stand up and hold the chicken over their back to cook it.. lol. and almost everyone's sweet potato exploded in the fire : we just threw in into the pit. tbe BOOM was quite audible, and heard all over the area.

Presentation : i made teriyaki sauce, from light soya sauce and honey, knowledge imparted from XIAOHAN..wrong. ZHI CHENG! and it received a postive comment from the judges. woohoo! WAIT I HAVE PICTURES. finally eh? taken by the Kenny wong, can say the photographer of npc ba.

the chicken was undercooked around its armpits, and the uhh.. dough was not cooked.

looks nice rite! but.. no time to eat the chicken, in the end threw all the food away, except the fish. too good le, so like, it was finished once i brought everything back to the campsite

this was sir's idea of a mixed grill.. i was like, thinking that it can be made into a kebab or smth..

1930: First aid practical + Scout quiz
well, same thing, i ian and benjamin did scout quiz.. the quiz was.. anyhow hantam. some of the things was totally unexpected. like. What is Our president's full name : A) Sruijuya Ramathanum Nathan, etc etc, like WHY WOULD I KNOW? Its S.R Nathan ok le ma.. still wan us know FULL NAME.. zzz. really anyhow hantan. What was Badan Powel's WIFE NAME? got a few wierd names la, like MADONO and Britney Spears.. -.- but den still left 2 tt we duno.. hais...

29 November 2008 : Day 3

Pioneering : ...ok. major screw up. the last platform NOT ENOUGH BENCH POLES. and liangmin totally disregarded the instructions i told him for bridge, so in the end i did the bridge myself. thanks a lot man. pictures pictures.

this is our structure. Theme : Angular. wtf? and thats me. the photo was taken when i wasnt noticing... looks ok rite? not too bad... but look at...

THIS! WTF! compare wif the previous photo, ours CMI. dont think onli this view nice hor, look at

the SIDE-FRONT VIEW. omg... work of perfection. done by Catholic High scouts.

soo.. we had to think up of a skit to. jokingly, i say, Eh. we can do like, a comercial la, like, for ENO powder? LAWLS!. den jiale really took what i said seriously, and came up wif a ENO POWDER COMERCIAL!

Scene 1 : In the NPC TOILET (not really in the toilet, but pretending)

Jiale : Sia la! Keith! the shit stuck in my backside! keep farting but nothing come out! what to do sia!

Keith : Drink Eno la! it helps in constipation! (or something along that context)

Jiale : i dont believe u la keith! always poison my food one! dont care! dont shit alr.

*walks out, keith also walks out aft a while*

Scene 2 : day 5 NPC

*everybody walks out happily*

Jiale : Ehh! wait la! cannot move! 5 day nvr shit alr! (ok forgot what they said)

den keith put the ENO powder in front of jiale. and walk away...

the skit was funny la, the judges thought it was very good, but no scout-theme inside, so we lost to a damn lame skit at the campfire..

30 November 2008 : Day 4

ok. slacking day. open house was damn slack lo.. wif like, liangmin uncle and brother coming and disiao, etc etc... nth much to say, except

there was a BIG CAMPFIRE. which we lost our patrol.. -.- in the end met up la, but den, sit until my leg cramp. zz. and the subcamp chief and the subsubcamp chief behind..zzz stress bodoh. nvm. highlight of the camp : skit
.. i think la, the most zai is the RAP SKIT! wtf. its like Scouts vs Sec1 who dun wan to join scout. would love to get their script sia... and cat high skit was... er.. a crossdresser. piang. damn wtf. and got subcamp1 de, onli girls acting, but they we like screeching like bitches, buey tahan.

and the award presentation. was damn nervous la. was happy wif anything between a bronze and a gold, but.. we got silver. din feel as happy as i thought, hais.. but retained gold. most not happy one is... Best in Pioneering : cat high. Best in orienteering : cat high. Best in scout quiz : cat high. Best in first aid : cat high.. going on for 80% of the special awards. make it 95%.

our score. cat high was like, 49/55. ours onli 29.4...

1 DECEMBER 2008 : PACK UP! ok dun need to say one. wasnt processing thoughts well that day also.

3 cheers for NPC 2008 Team Zhonghua. the staff are those wif collared shit. zhordeng sia.

2008-11-20T00:29:00.000+08:00

phew. everyday 9am to 6pm. tired.. but at least there are people that suffer wif me :) hais. NPC peng not my taiji... they tear off their gold unit badge mia wad. no kick. :)

things will just appear vividly in your mind upon the appearence of certain places or characters. until now, i still dislike going to hougang. i dont play soccer, i dont play arcade, i dont hangout. what things can do to change people. its just that mixed feeling that like once told you that they were friends, and the voice that warns you against further hurt, and the present voice that i conciously says that time mended the wound. probably it left a throbbing scar. b4 we meet, i get some sort of anticipation to see how they are doing, but den when we meet i duno what to do, when we leave i feel relieved. would it be really better if like, i went to xinming? manxuan maybe wont turn bad, (partially i think its my fault for accusing her, leading her to become so bad to "def" herself), and i wont piss off everybody at sec1, sec3/4, wont give the teachers so much trouble also. or maybe it will be worse...iffing wont help. nvr ending..

WELL. its holidays, so like, wont ever see them again. maybe. so... maybe wont have to bother abt all this again. hai... feel so burdened by all these...still hate my bro. and i HAVEN GET MY MOTHER's BDAE PRESENT. OMG. TML ACTUAL DAY... and tml have scouts.. zzz. peng. maybe go kovan's LEE HWA JEWELLERY or AMK's Bits' and Pieces.. but no time..omg. maybe request tml got looong lunch break or smth...wad to get for mother~

NPC in 1 week time. and yisen will say : NO LIFE, but i rather go den rot at home.

oversea trip : sian. duno wan to go anot. if got clash on monday den dun go.yeah.

dance : yeah, expose to foreign culture. feel that duno which zar bor go arnd the world learn dance SO ZAI LA. wan to go arnd learn also...

still hate my bro

maybe this is the bad point of having the ability to see from all perspective..

2008-11-09T22:49:00.001+08:00

now that my secondary sch days are nearing an end, i begin to wonder...

if the time can turn back to the day where i decide where to go for my secondary life...

what will happen if i choose to go in xinmin wif kok wee? would it be better?

2008-11-09T22:27:00.001+08:00

hey! last 2 paper left.. suddenly feel damn bored, so conpiled a list of fav songs and included them in a new playlist! the 1st 4 four songs are a must hear. well.. 1st is Timepiece Phrase II, original version, jazz. rather then the rock version in arcade

2nd and 3rd is Brothers, or Bratja in Russian. well, the lyrics are touching if u know the storyline of full metal alchemist.

4th and 5th, damn nice song. hear it to believe it. :)

rest are the songs that i like that arent english or wad :)

2008-10-14T21:50:00.003+08:00

yay.. guess what. my brother took the camera out during sun.. and I CANT UPLOAD THE PHOTOS. camera wif his fren. :)

wa..today tio scam 10$. and the seller still say is my fault for not checking the goods.wtf. win liao. i return him package and everything, but he still say cannot. zzz.

but den again, the law of Equivilent trade dictacts that there must be a gain for a loss. well.. u could say i grown smarter to not trust this stupid roadside stalls.. but also..

yeah. finally like.. be the person i once was.. 1yr 4 mths ago... it was brief, but it was real. felt like.. i could say anything i want (onli policicaly correct, learnt frm the lesson n val n van), well.. dun feel the feeling to hold everything inside and ask people wif sparingly words that piss people off.. 1st time, talked it all out.. sorta. lol. but then again, just let it stay that way. i fear another relapse of what happened. amen. -.-

btw, in the year book. for SPORTS DAY. its obvious that our scouts DIDNT NOT MARCH PROPERLY. wtf. y samuel hand raise higher then the other 2 that raise at the same height. AH. samuel. need train on ur marching liao ar. got PROOF there.

i saw joohou face appear THRICE on the NE leader page.. -.- dun see him so active for scouts sia. lol.

my face appear 4 times.. 1 face covered. :)

2008-10-09T21:30:00.002+08:00

this is it people. tommorow is the last day of the school term, officially, for us. i mean, like, so this marks the end of our secondary school life.

so after the o's, these are going to remain as memories. and we wont be seeing zhonghua will be like our primary sch, forgotton. the TTTTTC we endured, ridiculous pumping..

i like.. scared now that i couldnt resocialise in the next year. always had problems.. sec 1, and sec 3. den now i also very civil.. like very distant. what to do? very mixed emotions now..mixed with the fact that there will be no uneasy situations where i have to pretend i dont know some people at all... wont be seeing them ever again liao. suay suay same jc/poly same army same company den too bad.

4 years gone liao, like that. and im 16. time is just like an clockwork, each moment ticking away, a natural progression of instants, that im losing rapidly... hope that we wont forget each other that easily. but also dun hang on it too much.. must move on

Piorities.

2008-09-12T20:04:00.003+08:00

Seriously. im think of reconsidering my piorities in my secondary school now. why should i give all out to scouts when majority dont care? im wasting my time, i dont get any benefits, i got my merit award, got my CCA distinction. any time i spent in scouts, is entirely volunteerily.

so why should i care abt the upcoming campfire, or the upcoming NPC? im not going to be benefiting from it anyway. the juniors cant be serious when the time needs to be, so im going to be talking to thin air again.

there are other things in my sec sch life that could come 1st. most imptly is the GSCE olvl exam. and to think im sacrificing my studing time to endure my time being wasted today. i can take up a sea sport activity, like i always wanted. i could jio a GF, which some of my frens are desperately wanting to know who. -.- i could widen my social circle. i could finally go to the gym and be Jie Shi. so y should i like even care for the major activities that happen in scouts anymore?

yisen always say, "WTF! GO SCOUTS? NO LIFE LA" and im starting to think that myself. i have a better life to live, and this unbeneficial CCA is starting to show its deterimental effects.

guess the upcoming scouts things i wont be able to be 100% efficient. im going to just give a 20%, and after monday and tuesday, thats it. GSCE O lvl. and goodbye scouts. going leave them to die for the dance. its not my problem anymore.

NPC. go for the sake of attending. 5 days will be over in a flash. Gold unit doesnt concern me after all.

time for a serious considering of piorities. Scouts cant supply my needs and wants. onli a proper education background and certificate that will ensure my survival in the socio-economic world society.

2008-09-10T20:04:00.002+08:00

hmm..

did a test that jianan sent me out of boredom. well.. was initially afraid due to those 'test' that have a great surprise out of nowhere... but yeah. this wasnt that.

test was quite accurate, and enlightening. was prolly due to some psychological studies, but i dont really care. lol. just know that it is true to a certain extent.

sheep pig horse cow tiger. so i put my love 1st.? o.o i duno. i thought sheep was cute den i put that first. lol. den money, family, career and pride. so i dun care abt my pride. lol. sorta. tiger fierce i dun really like. lols

hmm, den i described myself as faithful, my future wife as catty. LOL. cat - catty -.- duno what to write. dun like gluttony people... and my life's limitless. :) theres where i got the enlightment.

surprising, the colours test were extremely accurate. even though i din describe a colour. orange no one, which is my best fren. lol. yeah. no best fren at the moment... but den again, it isnt compulsory to have one in the first place. prolly will get a phobia about getting to close with people now.

well. my life's limitless. so like, i should open up my mind to everything, like i did in the past. experience everything, and learn. everyone is weak. a wise man seeks to learn a lesson from the weakness, and prevent it from future happening. a fools let it seeks control and destroy it utterly. but sometimes, a wise man is a fool...

2008-08-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

hey hey! i like to thank the classmates of my class (duh) for today.. duno y our class owns today. :)

the dame bring-bag-up-throw-bag-down event... we got 1st! thanks to everyone for their enthuness. nvr see shawn lin each time so enthu de carry the bag over for me and jiale to karabina onto the bag. and the lowering. Jiale clever enough to use 4 gloves tgt.. den slide down.. no friction at all. lol. den a SERIES OF EVENTS HAPPENED THAT I CANNOT BLOG. :) confidential.

the performance was rad. Radiance + Butterfly + Satanic + Divine Rapier! omg. but also got + a few Ironwood branches.. woots. e7 still got the M-A-S-K-E-R-T-E-E-R-S cardboard. lols. rooting for our clasmate! :)

psst. that was the best performance. quoted by some teachers :)

andrea chong came back today! lol. talked alooot. her bf. ermhim or smth. duno how 2 spell and forgot how 2 pronounce. =.= i think andrea is obsessed over him la. in pizza hut sms 6 times, call 3 times, no reply still panic and use my phone call. wierd thing is although she is anxious, she hopes that he gets into an accident. =.=

ya. and charmaine..remember what i said ar. dun.. that... and dun... that. :)

sorry P-sch frens. din go. ltr tio chase out by security guard den waste time again.

and in conclusion, with cross-referencing to the 1 week holiday and what comes after that, its time to MUG! woohoo! Thank you. Ultimate Victory.

2008-08-14T20:58:00.002+08:00

omg. this song got feel sia.. although i dun feel as much FEEling as Lie or Look only at me.. but still.. is zai.

enjoy. Haru Haru by Big Bang. also means Day by Day

2008-08-11T14:11:00.003+08:00

woohoo im on a book craze now. to all extents to get an A for english. ms ow would be so proud!

bought these 4 books... 15.50 each. so spending a grand total of $62 today!!

these are the warcraft books i have in my arsenal. read the top 6 rows alr

diablo series.

does these look inviting! omg. cant wait to read them

re-reading this book. its zainess lo.

ya. so these are all the blizzard books i have. each cost 15.50... so guess how much i spend :)

this post is one of the most boring post i have posted. lol. but at least it have a lot of pictures! lurve the pics on the book :)

2008-07-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

remember the days? unfortunately, these days will be relieved in the near future, november... had fun though, the shouting of ding yao at us even though we followed his instruction to the letter and he screwed it up, well, managed to build something like this with like.. 10 men? and we have 8 men to build a fortress in 5 days. zzz. PIANG. must train stamina liao

that photo have a certain sense of achievement to it.. :)

2008-07-28T16:27:00.003+08:00

waa... new hair. a lot of people say nice hair. but duno they sacastic anot. cause normally i also do that to people when they just cut hair =.=

and, no intention to be like youngbae. the uncle anyhow cut 1 hair become like that one... dun like anyway. i got fringe :)

SICK. DAMN XING KU!!

2008-07-18T21:24:00.003+08:00

feel a bit like the duno what animal inside the mouth. =.= sometimes i wonder am i doing it a bit too much. or is it that im a person that went through the same path, thats y i try to help me scouts.... doesnt matter. who knows? maybe royce and jeremy will benefit from this afterall. next up - monday. pray that all will go sucessful :0

things are not the same~ but still..they will never be :)

2008-07-17T21:29:00.002+08:00

hmm. am i finally free from the toll that almost taken away everything months ago?

truthfully, yes. in some ways or the other, i lost and gained as compared to 1st jan 2007. lost a few heartworthy 2e5 frens, gained a few hearthworthy 4e7 friends. it all balances up. Equivilant trade :) anyway. it will b a few more months b4 i wont see them alr. guess there will be no further actions to reunite us liao. im staying neutral :) and thats like what i was 1yr ago.. and transisiting to it rather well. jianan's words helped i guess. thanks jianan :)

oh ya. of today offically i have regain my faith of speech to them, i guess. communing to a certain extent, thats all.

26 open end chem question to go. jiayou me. :(

2008-07-05T20:51:00.001+08:00

omg. chanced upon my pri sch class blog =.= hope no one recognise who i was =x

2008-06-26T19:40:00.000+08:00

wow junie. thanks a lot. =.=

* People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.*
Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people!

1) If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- well.. 1stly of course i will be heart broken. anyone in the normal sane of mind would be... den.. get back at them. see what sort of feelings i have at that point of time. hope no bombastic actions then. :)

2) If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- To lead a stable life, but still the job has some sort of risk or excitement that keeps me moving forward.

3) What will your dream wedding be like?
- err.. a happy one? didnt give much thought to this. but everyone happy, den its a dream wedding. dun really care about the packaging.

4) Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
- why should i be? i know what i want to do, what i want to become. im determin-ified.

5) What's your ideal lover like?
- someone simple-looking yet extraordinary, in terms of thoughts, maturity, etc. someone that appears to me as the same as i am.

6) Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- loving someone is giving them your blessings, being loved is someone giving your their blessings. both are equally blessed. :)

7) How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- cliche question leh. until it dies off prolly.

8) If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- like someone else? duh? if like.. deep crush den wait for them break den wait like 1-2 months den ask :)

9) Is there anything that's made you unhappy these days?
- cant really deny.. well.. too delicate to mention. but yes. unhappy. not very unhappy thought. just irritated.

10) Is being tagged fun?
- er. neutral? like conversing onli.

11) How do you see yourself in ten years time?
- that would be 26. either pursuing higher education or just started working in the society. successfully.

12) Who are currently the most important people to you?
- Me. my family. some friends pherhaps.. but maybe they wont last long.

13) What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
- err.. explosive? great friend la.

14) Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
- well.. both would work out for me. single & rich & lonely would be the worse. either works.

15) What's the first thing you do every morning?
- Bathe. dun wan to have BO.

16) Would you give it all in a relationship?
- yes. its a relationship duh. i give it my all. be it friends family or whatnot. too bad i dun always get the all from them also. very discouraging one like that

17) If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- well. no past experience. and no multiple choice answer. how to answer??

18) What type of friends do you like?
- well.. easy to get along type, fun type, but displined. sporty. people that sense of feel are more prominient. and true to oneself.

19) What type of friends do you dislike?
- backstabbers. that would make my no.1 list. well.. dun really like those that put on a facade to gain pity and all that.. and sluts too. people with BO also. no hygiene sia.

now i duno who to tag. =.=

2008-06-18T23:30:00.004+08:00

Blogging for the Last 2 BBQ. Urgh.

well.. had 2 bbqs. monday and today. monday 1st.

Monday : well.. was planning to arrive late late.. u know, to give a certain pair some more quality time tgt.. but den someone rushed me den i bought the otahs, thinking that they may be sold out.? =.= in the end still so many left la. =.= oh ya. at this point of time Taoyee was like sms-ing me to bring swimming trunks. i thought that was yuting la, since they are tgt buying stuff and yt de sms kababoom liao, furthermore taoyee seldom sms me... den i like jokingly sms back.. =.= ltr den i know its taoyee. damn paiseh la. =.=

kk.. arrived at amk hub arnd.. 5? finished up a few grocery shopping dne met up wif pok val. ehh.. some miscommunication happened.. but still cool :) oh ya. bought 4 bacardi at this point of time. the waitress didnt care if i was of legal age la. woohoo! feel so good ~~~. met ziyu den went on to yt's hse.

set up the fire and stuff... KNEW A EARTH-SHAKING SECRET. OMG!!!. but that was so predictable.? =.= play arnd.. and amazed at the food we had at the bbq? had like.. roti prata? and potato wif fillings. theres a Water Bird Experiment too. but the video isnt wif me... will upload it in due time. meanwhile these are the pictures that i koped from other ppl's blog =x

ok wtf. i upload the picture dun have [Done] button. zzz.

IN THE END DIN PLAY WIF WATER!!! ZZZ.

yeah.. hang around after that... ghost story! didnt know mine was of any effect? seems depressing.. =.= den went home wif emmanuel and kenny on bus 136.

WEDNESDAY. went at 4.30.. met up wif van anthia jolene val for shopping. split into 2 parties and went hunting. had quite heated objections.LOL. den cont to shauns hse after meeting shaun wk jes glen on the way.

walk daaamn far to go to the bbq pit.. but den the pit thing a bit wierd.. erh? but still! the skilled wenkai and feng rong managed to set up the PIT! woohoo.

play around... lalala. ltr at night went down into the swimming pool to relax.. but den got went instead. den need to go to the bbq pit to oven myself. sorry wenkai. =.=

den went home wif fel jiale and jon. listen to their engaging conversation on how 2 get home! lol

2008-06-14T19:02:00.002+08:00

woah. today was one exhausting day.

woke up at 6. decide what to wear.. den rush down.. zzz. feel my attire a bit wierd. but alr down =.= father fetch me to arnd ave4.. den fetch me to mac. ate breakfast.. crap a bit.. oh ya. met wenxun jianan and emmanuel there. they didnt seem to hear what i said.. ? oh nvm.. den i THOUGHT it was near, so we walk. turns out the venue a bit wierd, den walk for 15 mins more. =.= thought we were lost la! zzz

reach there liao. but the emcee was like.. shouting over the mike at 7am in the morning?! err? felt damn awkard... den walk out. waited there like ages while playing with the goodie back. sorta filtered out what we want and what we dun want.. =x den returned the bag with the 'unwanted' stuff. hope they didnt notice =x

1st station : Picture of Car and Sea Wave. Car 'Lang'. Kallang. =.= went there.. 1st! need to rein in the cup with water without spilling. so took out out shoelaces and lassoed the cup in.lol.. ok.. quite entertaining. BTW. made Daniel (our facil)'s tag wet. woops.

went up to the mrt. WTF! my shoelace no anklets. zzz. den duno what to do la. lucky michelle lent me her hairpin.. which i use to thread over the holes. make until my hand damn pain la.. zzz. and it was at the 3nd station den i managed to thread finish =.=

2nd station : A picture of a building. churchy building. well.. duno really know what issit. but Daniel Pang zhui. =x St Andrew Cathedral. i pronounce Cat-the-ral he correct me lol. well.. ALMOST missed the checkpoint. =) had to obtain as many signatures and photos with the public as possible..well.. did pretty well. met obnoxious singaporeans as well.

3rd station : A whole series of numbers, which is SERANGOON BUS INTERCHANGE when typed on handphone. woah. our teh pua. went there... but NO ONE! daniel called up the station ic.. but they were walking from SERANGOON STADIUM!! so.. what can we do? go eat lunch lo. had mac for lunch.. and chatted~~

3rd Station, Part 2 : soo.. they were finally there. BUT PPL WENT 1st!! unfair.. we reached there 1st la and wasted like 1 hr waiting...but nvm. we were kindhearted. daniel pang more zhui.. arranged according to order on the ground..lol had fun la.~

4th station : Never see clue. cause daniel alr gave us the hint hint~ Sengkang. so we rushed there... station ic very tricky sia. hide in some hard to see place.. ran around lo.. finally found them at near the exit of the mrt.. played Charades... lucky got 1 smart passerby.. solve everything in no time.. XD

5th station : duno what Park Sirs . cant really make a head or tail.. but just say PASIR RIS TOWN PARK! well.. partially correct..? daniel pang zhui again.. soo.. like we went there exactly.. and the questions are like all statistics la. cannot make it. =.= and the station ic was like.. ghey? so porh porh mah mah.. zz . cannot tahan him. purposely take his own sweet time. zzz

6th station : Picture of Sun, plaza and a Parking Lot sign, P. so we were mouthing like..Sun Plaza Car Park? P = park meh? =.= but nevertheless.. went there again. meet hwa chong ppl on the way.. but they like reach there 1st. nvm give them chance. play er.. bend-over-walk-under-pole thing. but must say smth related to Enviroment =.= err? well.. completed that well also.

7th Station : 4 numbers. well.. Daniel pang zhui again. took out street directory.. mark the 4 blocks in bedok, and rushed there. its like the cross of these 4 blocks. took the same bus as the hwa chong ppl... well. and had a race with them. involved a lot of scamming and misleading the other group.. but they still made it 1st. but we started at the same time. Mission : Collecting newspaper. fairly easy, if not for the hwa chong people cheated and combed our block. each was onli assigned 2 levels, but they went and took many more, including ours. the uncle was like pissed at us for visiting them twice la. luckily, i was lucky to receive a big pile from 1 uncle. woohoo. but in the end tio scolding from the station ic.

What have we learnt today : To uphold intergrity and be Honest :) said that out loud in front of the hwa chong people.

went back to hougang mall..sat there and waited like no one business for 3 hours. zzz. the guest of honour was speaking, but the mike lousy, cant hear a single word. =.= but prepared a LOVELY gift for daniel. and he prepared toilet roll us. =.= with message. well.. parted there. and went home.

enjoyable. and memorable experience of Sec 4

2008-06-12T22:11:00.003+08:00

heyys! recently very sian leh.. how? nth to do lo. study lo. but i didnt. ahaha.

read in a manga...Nothing happens in coincidence, onli the inevitable. woah. well.. thats a bit too deep, but seems to make sense.

and xxxholic is linked to tsubasa reservoir chronicles? wtf? interlinked manga? 1st time see...

hmm.. feel like taking up introductory japanese leh... like alr know the basics liao LOL... stupid o's. after o's to do

1.Finish Hip Hop course
2.Continue Guitar
3.After 1, Take up B-Boy.
4.Get into Sea Sport activities. woo love da sea.
5.Put down Secondary AND MOVE ON!!! mustn't look back. The past is history, the future a mystery, so y bother changing history???

hmms.. lets see.. remaining holidays should get started on homework liao..stupid chinese. and theres i think a e7 bbq..? and a bbq wif the ex-clique? duno what to term them now. friends seemed too distant. cant really call clique since i dun hang arnd with them now. idk really. like i said in point 5, time to let go alr~

Seen the theory alot of times liao, in Full Metal Alchemist, Equivalent Trade, xxxholic a Transaction or smth.. I have to give something in order to obtain or achieve something, in this case, my time and effort to achieve As for o.... stupid as it may seems, i have to direct these "enlightenment" to my studies.. FOCUS!! XUJU!!

woohoo. think im recovering my ex-self liao.. ~no more blending with the background, its the action in the foreground again :)

2008-06-03T16:53:00.002+08:00

waa. today BAD day BAD day... 1stly the Curse of the Golden Flower is upon me. just that the flower is wilted and has a black mole on its leaf... and tio kp by edward wong. dun like his atitude la.. like hes acting our age like tt. its like some ah pek trying to learn hip hop that kind of feeling.. zzz.

chem spa was ok. overeacted lols. thought will be something complicated and confusing..but it was just a piece of cake. :) gd luk for everybody's spa results

2008-05-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

Heres the ugly truth. i did badly for my amaths. 53/100! 1st time! and i think i wasnt concentrating well.. but... THAT IS NO EXCUSE...53!! omg... im gona become a mugger liao

btw. anthia hor. ur chem really hor say leh. can shade wrong everything one... 30 questions shade 30.. but halfway shade wrong.. =.= den keep whinning to me. LOLS. nvm i whine abt my amaths on tues liao. look forward to it....

(or should i whine abt my physics din get A1?)

well...recently lost interest for arcade. i conclude its because i dun wish to have anything to do with it liao.. since it reminds me of undesirable stuffs...

mrs ang getting more humourous eh... last yr thought she sian sian-type one.. lols. but den her threatens to make u drop pure is still very consistent. shes actually a good teacher lo... motherly figure LOL.

and that stupid ger who break her leg better get it recovered soon. or i gonna ensure it will never recover. ever again. tired of hanging arnd with short pants liao.

still duno what i want at this point of time... still feeling confused. haiss.

2008-05-07T20:30:00.002+08:00

"We cannot keep ourself clean...or should i say, we are not clean to begin with."

"If we look with a lucid eye, we will come to realise that [being alive] is the same as [doing evil], this is how the world is structured, no one can escape from this law. Evil is the truth of this world"

For it is the selfish innate desire that causes us to do evil, even for our own survival...every action we do, we cant say for sure that that is 'Good'. can you be so sure that it will not cause a 'Evil' action in the future by the influence of thoughts or factors?

simply existing, we are causing evil. we are changing the facets of the world that used to be good. no one is pure. we are all defiled.

believing that the world is good and pure, and kindness beget kindness, is being pure naive. i once believed in that, but where did it get me?

how can we be so sure that the 'Good' we are doing now will not cause a 'Evil' action that will be done by others. Cause and effect.

so is selfishness justified? one must do evil to protect one's interest? since evil is the truth of the world, it is where evil dominates. being good is akin to being immature.

thanks to my past experience for me to conclude this.

2008-04-15T20:12:00.001+08:00

Firstly. HAPPY BDAE JIALE.

yeah. well.. today is an sacred day. the marking of another human lives past another year. lols. sounds a bit... wrong.. but thats what it is.

study. i think. at the library.

oh ya. george and jin jie suddenly appeared before me for help... =.= when we just celebrated jiale bdae and they were setting off for lunch. err.. well.. what he commented surprised me... =.= and is rather sensitive to talk on the blog... =.= so... cont. LOGISTIC KANA PUMP TODAY. sorry for the ex-logist. is the new one. WINDOW NVR CLOSE. DEN KEY DUNO WIF WHO. ok.. the key thing is not so serious... but SINCE I WALK ALL OVER THE PLACE. might as well right? :) that stuuuuupid teacher. think she so zai. 1 person handle so many class. your students also not doing their work, all talking.. and U CALL THAT A TEST??? please la. kiang jiu hor. mai ghey kiang. old ppl shouldnt overwork themself la... take it easy. one foot into the grave liao, still work so hard? ltr kong kar qiao ar. its not as if your likable anyway. ur face look like what i just laosai-ed last week. ok that was a bit crude. let me put it in nicer terms. apparantly, u dun have any social graces or motherly care a teacher has. please go and get yourself pregnant before coming back to teach. im disgusted by you. omg. GET SOME MOTHERLY LOVE~~~ well. judging by your face and figure, its quite understandable. =)

spammed a huge big paragraph. but i didnt state names. any similarity or situational familiarity is purely coincidental and unintentional. sorry man.~ :)

横眉冷对千夫指,俯首甘为孺子牛.

2008-04-11T20:36:00.000+08:00

hey all. today had scouts~!

ok.. so its was the Camp : Aftermath day... lols. firstly the PT that killed most of the sec 1.. well... a group got lost... =.= weak~~~ need to train more. the changing parade took out most of them already. and jiale was hiong-ing all the way. den it was sprint at the carpark. i won.. naturally. sec 4 are expected to win... except for a few exceptional cases. den

JIA LE GOT PILLARED. WILLINGLY.

then it was the auction. poor them. the swift flag is a bit obvious... and the rest got pump. they got jack via the groundsheet.. den TORCHLIGHT. sorry inside joke. wonder the torchlight guy got back his torchlight.

yada yada... den handover.. partially. which they cleaned the den.. play a bit here and there... they got go home.

den play soccer with the juniors and jiale jianan jonathan... fun sia. although im noob and somehow injured them (woops). yeah. but had fun.

Jonathan : Lent your torchlight to her? lols.

another inside joke.

2008-04-08T19:54:00.000+08:00

well.. today had to express my deepfelt gratitude to someone.. namely, Ms Fu Shu Fen.

cause like.. we were chased out of the library... (can you believe it? the auntie dun wan us study in the library.. she actually DISAPPROVED US OF STUDYING!?)... but still it was raining heavily. jiale and i was waiting for the rain to stop and fel's bus... but den.. .dun feel like getting drenched. den.. we saw ms fu walk out. she was like.. opening her umbrella and preparing to walk home.. but den jiale and i sae " MS FU! taxi to kovan! "... and she really did. we were just joking!... but she sae she should... teachers should help students...so she really taxied us to kovan. =.= THANK U MS FU.

well.. partially i didnt ran in the rain was due to i dun wan to take bus also. =)

ms fu also made an intriguing statement. "you know, when you are a scout, you stay forever a scout. its like... the spirit stays within you." or something like that. well.. that made me realise that its true. i now like.. scoutified... =.= and thats natural to me already. hope the scouts in my troop all realises this . =x

2008-04-06T19:41:00.000+08:00

well.. things had changed a lot for me.. comparing me now, 3 months ago, and last year.

last year... i was in a pretty bad state. friends gave up on me... and such. some helped me endure...well.. they are pretty much who i hang around with now.. looking back, i cant imagine how last time i used to grovel and bear all the blame... seems so stupid now.

3 months ago, fully devoted myself to church. lols. prolly thats the time i found renewed hope to stand up. well.. a bit of tension between my bro and me abt it...and no biggie. probably im still confused and lost about my bearings. once i believe that just by treating everybody good, nothing bad will happen to you. guess thats so naive of me.

now. practically reverted back to jan 2007 and before. the time where i spent my time alone about 60% after school. if nothing special happening after school i would go straight home. solitude provides comfort better then humans. stressful to consider this and that.. precaution and everything. cant even speak my own free will of what i want now. i thought the country has a freedom of speech.?

oh ya. recovered from flu. yay. but den homework piles up for 2 days. die. maybe monday still can fake a bit of flu den extend deadline. :)

2008-04-02T16:35:00.001+08:00

The blogger has been rendered out of service do to unforseen circumstances. namely, influenza.

thanks for the people that offered their well-wishes. :)

2008-03-24T19:57:00.006+08:00

woohoo. scout camp over. it was damn zai la. lots of fun things happen. viewing our past in the vision of a venture.

wearing our venture uni for the 1st time. felt a sense of achievement. lols. 1st night was tiring. fix tent.. fix this fix that. but nvm. i enthu. i help jianan. but 1st day night was cram course by sir... so we nth to do.. in the end slp at I3. briefing till 3am... still need to plan our teaching schedue. i was covering knots and Firelighting.. suppose to cover world scout badge for sec 1.. but.. ohwell..

2nd day. sec 1 came in... they got until 12 for camp developement.. which the most unlikely patrol made it through. Jien Hisu. his patrol most zai one. Kitchen shed up properly, 2 A-frames also up liao. other patrol de kitchen shed like shit, cant even see the a-frame.... den its a whole afternoon of lecture for them again. poor them...

dinner was supposed to be cooked by the sec1. i walk arnd see see... and Swift Patrol was hillarious. Nattapon was the sec 2 in-charge.. but all i see is Jin Jie ordering them around. The eggs hor... omg. he cracked 1 in, den fry, den crack another in. and the 1st egg was cooked. he repeated this process 5 times; 5 eggs. and it was like. Raw. Semi-Raw, Rare, Medium and Well-Done eggs mixed together.... should have taken a photo. cant believe how his patrol mouthed down the food anyway.

after dinner the sec 2 went out for their cca hike. unfortunately.. nattapon halfway return back.. some problem i think. and i taught my Knotting course.. quite easy la.. duno y the sec 1 cant get it... Thumb knot. Sheet Band was the killer knot. and A certain sec 1 with cramped boobs cant seem to get ANY of the knots right, when the rest does. lets all enjoy a photo. onli photo i took during the camp when i was teaching my knots

yes, and this is Jin Jie... apply the use of sheepshank. i din teach him to do that though.

3rd day. cannot make it liao... too tired. but den endure for the sake of the juniors. backwoodsman cooking jianan take charge.. but the pit they dig is... so different from what i taught them too.. maybe cause i teach them den they loosen the soil too much... =x. their food was... what we cooked last time - inedible. afternoon was some crap games which was damn boring, and i missed the chance to abseil.zzz. den at night was the Investure cum Campfire.

OK. the campfire was.. Cheering session. cheer a bit, den MC invite patrol do skit. in the end they still cheer. so cheering all the way. as a finalae we got sir doing some obscence tthing that made me doubt if that is really him... zzz. investiture was good. except for benjamin lim. he was adjusting his uniform like no one's buisness and yawning, and sleeping. wtf?? even jien hisu DIDNT SLEEP... which is a miracle enough... and now this? omg... lucky sir din kan him...

last day. logistic with jianan.. ok ok la. see junior slacking scold all the way nia... Keith Joshua Ian nattapon liangming got promoted to APL.. din miss out any i hope.. den all sec 3 except warren got promoted to PL. Best camper Keith and Jin Jie. Keith got La Zhuang sia... i think jin jie will la zhuang also.

in the end, they leave. WHILE LEAVING BEHIND ALL THEIR RUBBISH. ventures cleared for them. this coming friday, they DIE.

2008-03-09T00:12:00.004+08:00

scouts day was rad. sorta. the power of being senior. =)

wrapped up the whole thing within the morn. pretty well done.

afternoon at home got 1 dragon scout troop ask me for donation. we mutal donate. lols.

i dun get it. my pressence seem so not needed. why did i go today. only thing i achieve is watched a movie in eons. woohoo. why should i make them happy when me myself isnt? thats just it guys. it wraps up everything. next time just dun ask me out if u know we are not going to enjoy it. end of story. i wasnt who i am, cause i dun even know who i should be in order to please them. omg. that sounds so much like a slave. slave of emotions. i sound like i taken the depression drug that kills all emotion. well. thats what i practically did. and i dun enjoy it. tell me. who should i be? i was who i was, u all didnt like it. i reverted, u all didnt like it. i din sae anything, u all didnt like it. i remained emotionless, and u all didnt like it. what the heck u all wan me to be? im being a chamelon of emotions and behaviour now, trying to suit ur best needs and im feeling the worst now. if that is so hard for us just let us stop this ridiculousness. furthermore, the most impt day to me just passes like that. and not even the wind stir. wow. that is so touching. just leave me out of all this and get on with your life. i will be happier without the cold and hot treatment anyway. its not everyone thats like that, i admit. but whats the use. i wouldnt wan to cause discomfort to anyone that im with, cause im sensitive enough to feel it. im probably gonna get it from this people, but den, does it really matter? i cleared the pictures we taken from all the storage devices i have le. so please. clear your memories of the times we have. i will be glad to just maintain as ur exclassmate. thank you. hope that this will be the last time i will be typing this.

i have no need to hide of this. thanks charmaine for spurring me on.

the reason why my schedue is mostly occupied is because i dun wan the excess time to be spent thinking of what we normally do on that day. sunday, saturday, and weekdays. furthermore im spending my time more productively rather then wasting them all helping others and reaping nothing of out it. my initiativeness to help them in their work has always gone to naught. why help them when i can help my class, who appreciates me more than what i assist them in?

It you think it is, it is. It isnt, den it isn't. im through trying to clarify everything already.

nice pictures yt have in her 8 march post. :)

oh ya., happy birthday wenxun and valerie. hope u 2 enjoyed yourself today.

2008-02-23T21:34:00.003+08:00

new batch of sec 1 looks promising.

except a certain guy frm yt's facilitated class..

and jin jie said something very encouraging.

"duno y. 1st time i saw u i think u good pl liao."

wah. so touching right? lols. this even made me wan to serve scouts more la.

den the sec 1 all so enthu... so therefore, i resolve to maintain their enthu spirit. :)

why are chrisitians better listeners den other non-christians? cg ppl are always seemed to b there for u...

si junie. when i start 2 persuade sinyee to join she sae. " Orh. feng rong yi chu ma...confirm can persuade one."

er.. thanks. ? lols

the power of speech.

and i screwed up the founder's day. zzz. why must i be the only one scout on stage? and cheryl must b the gg speaker. made me seem like an amplifier for her sia. my speech impairment to bring out her eloquency. zzz.

reverting back to the solo living self. never felt better sia. joshua ar.(CG de) GO FOR IT. opportunity never waits. :) oh ya. joshua also sae i very good speaker. zzz. cause i everything also link until that topic. lols

4 more months till prelim. and next wk common test. IM GONA ACE THEM ALL. woohoo

2008-02-05T21:41:00.001+08:00

sorry for the LATE post on my bdae...yeah.

so this is what happened on the 3rd of Feb. met david, fel, tiffanny, dom at ny hse there... took 72 to tampines. david plomped into his seat.. waking up the person slping beside him. lols. so farni.

expo. well.. almost late. yeah. but... a bit wierd la. worshipping tt time dom keep luffing at me. zzz. den drama show tt time they eat the orange. nth to say. lols...
Fortitude ar Fortitude... ENDURE. hmm hmm...

den after tt my cg members sorta surprised me with the cake. lols. and the present. 100 dollars... expensive sia... den laoshi wan me give speech.. duno wad to say. 4th feb also baby christian birthday.. so celebrate tgt. lols.

the shirt was damn nice... but... erm... =). den went to kope food at the refreshment stand. woohoo. evil leh we.. =x. after tt we walk walk T3. david backflip sia.. wtf... next time see me topspin. ur backflip is no kick by then liao. =x

ate lunch at popeye. the BREAD is FLOUR. nice meh... =.= but other thing nice la. joshua made me lose face sia.. make us both la. lols. wrestle wrestle.. until got a FAT HUMONGUOUS ROUND BALLY FIGURE FAT OBESE AUNTIE in her late 40s that almost broke the chair when she sat down commented. "Public Nuisence" WELL. thanks a lot. forgot what i scold.. but i remember saying " Enjoy your Lunch. careful of your high blood pressure and cholestrol. heart attack is fatal you know." wanted to add careful that the pressure inside your body from OVERSTUUFING will cause you to IMPLODE. ya. careful. liposuction could even help u sia.

and thus joshua tio scolding frm lips again.

after tt went to joshua hse. fel they all went to serangoon... messy sia. lols. my hse also in a DEPLORABLE mess (look at this ms ow, i used ur word!)... baby freeze a bit.. den ow flip flip.. joshua tackle me again.. lala.. den went off for pasir ris. SADLY, when we reach there ling ling and ying ying gtg. sad. but den celebrated christian bdae.. again. lols. christian damn cute sia. (btw i duno how 2 spell the baby's name. lols)

oh ya. by this time the cake was... erm... rolled here and there inside the contained liao.. lols.

WANTED TO DRUM. but den joshua and aw dun wan go out. AW GOT HIS VIRTUAL TENNIS FORGET EVERYTHING LE LA> wth. zzz. but had good time la.. talking and playing. lols.

sorry ar shihui yuting valerie ziyu wenxun wanni... sunday mostly for church one... =)...

and hope fel david tiffany and dom enojoyed themself on sun.... xD

2008-01-26T22:08:00.001+08:00

omg. OMG OMG OMG !!!!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=S8P9leqyY20

2008-01-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

well.. the bible saes.. love your enemies, for if you love those who love you, where are your rewards?. so i continue? after being hurt so much? Christ also said " Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing." i live by Christ, so that means i must forgive them...? for they are blinded by the darkness of the world...

i seriously duno what to do now.

btw. A1. happy. elated. overjoyed. estatic. jubilated. ms ow will b glad. for the use of english.

btw. my hair is 100% natural. no additional drugs or chemicals added. that includes viagra. :)

2008-01-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

Friday

HAD 5 PERIOD OF HMT. WTH! almost died of chinese-itis. especially her china speech. omg... den had scouts. ok. they started plc when i reach there. volunteered to do the frank cooper sands. got a feeling will tio kan. zzz. den go cg. dam shagg.. not me onli. the usual noisy ppl also very shag. 1st time see ved din disturb ppl sia. den joshua also nvr come kajiao me. lols. but den after tt... when we waiting for my mother, joshua kajiao me liao. =.= talk onli.. but den sudden urge for toilet. :) in the end recite the whole naruto skill book again. lols.

Sat

FLAG day. at first like.. do alone. cause fel they all gng wif shaun.. and i feel quite awkward. espcially if the guys join wif them also. well.. God was kind... and i went to do wif yuting shihui wanni ziyu and val. at chinatown. IT WAS SO DISGUSTING. someone sneeze and the snort dripped onto the floor. omg.... and so many rude ppl dao me la. zzz. den when me meet up ltr.. shihui wanni ziyu val keep saeing they saw japanese ppl.. den damn high. =.= why high sia. see me high liao LOLS>

den we go shihui hse celebrate her bdae.. hais. watch movie... den take pictures. after tt play some game or wad... den cake. cake chaos. everyone was taking the cream and sai whoever's face possible. lols. den water.. yuting and shihui 'lured' us to the toilet.den spray... =.= i react leh. den hurt their wrist. my strength too big le. lols. quite fun la...

Sun

went for sermon. cannot tahan. sat 1am++ den slp. dozing off all the way.... lucky joshua and kc sit behind me. not some elder or wad. lols. den after sermon slp for 1 hr... waiting for their bs end... den go bugis. kw damn high sia. lols. LOLS. cannot blog this out. ahaha.

all in all. i got molested. zzz. but den taken revenge liao. and i know im strong at knuckle crushing 'whatever u call tt'. sian nxt week will miss cg... ARRGGG!!

MON

went O sch. learn wave. but den do like jellyfish. must train. charmaine was like...err.? and stella was still err. need training u gers.laveen came late. again. =.= but den WAVE~~~ woots. goona practise.

2008-01-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

monday is OVER. but ytd to tired to blog.... and din blog sun and sat too..

MON

Stella and charmaine was there. they didnt know what to expect.lols. they should have learnt the basics at least frm me.. they look very wierd. lols. and the 'wenxun' teacher, Ryan, was hillarious. again. this time learn 'pendulum' (thats what i call this action.), den some actions to lead to pose. had a great time. woohoo.

Sat

went for tuition.. and den job. well. gerek scammed me. thought it was an one time job thing. but... yeah. looks promisible. see what it offers first.

SUN

CG~! well... bad's over and dun wish to talk abt it. and joshua's 'pilating' made me tired. + monday = SHAG. zzz. monday couldnt conc in class.. all i thought was. 'sleep'. zzz. will the fighting between the couples cease? find out in the next episode of : (haven thought of title yet)

2008-01-13T00:28:00.000+08:00

Im not tied down by my fleshly catalyst. Im suppose to lead a spiritual life now. but y do i still hold on to the matters that weigh my heart down.?

and i need to deeply stress : i DO NOT LIKE GOING OUT WITH MY BROTHER. for instance. i say something. he will comment : "Oh~! My brother said (something)" and he will give that effed up face. PLEASE LA. i dont go around COMMENTING on everything little action u do. "Oh, Feng Ming breathed out!" "Oh! Feng Ming breathed in" ITS SO DAMN IRRITATING. and thats 1 of the reason i hate u. get this into your thick, AND I MEAN THICK numbskull of yours. If u REALLY TRUELY want to be humble, den start by making this statement " I DO NOT KNOW ". please. ur alr as fucked up as u alr are.

ok. something off my heart liao. the other has 1 more year to b entirely off my mind. :)

monday MONDAY~!! laveen stella zixin charmaine and andrea ANTICIPATE!! yeah.

2008-01-08T17:03:00.000+08:00

OMG. finally. FINALLY~! MY LONG AWAITED DREAM/FANTASY/GOAL/TARGET/(whatever) CAME TRUE.

after my schmates procastinated so long, i finally joined O Sch.

but not with them. lols.

with LAVEEN~!.

and on the 1st lesson, for a lesson with NO BASIC BACKGROUND. i dare say im doing a pretty good job.

probably due to the insenseless twitching and bhb of mine alone that made me dance so well...cause ppl are usually shy. too bad im not xD

learn..Gate, BOunce, and some footwork that i dunoo what issit called. oh ya. and chest roll.

gotta come up with my own pose also.. hmms.. no idea leh. i wonder what should i inculcate...

no pics. cause too busy dancing for pics.

2007-12-31T22:03:00.000+08:00

LAST DAY OF 2007. zzz...

wtf. so fast one year gone liao. i like to quote something frm somewhere that i got frm someone...

"I guess this year has been quite a tough year for you yeah? For all of us actually. But you were strong & overcomed it."

yeah. agree. but i dont view what happen this year as a bad thing. i achieve something too.

Them. those incident led me to an accidental bliss. it might be a bit late in the year, but still.. im still glad.

not forgetting,(NOT ACCORDING TO IMPT-nity)

The 4 gals of 2e5. the mugging group =.= always study wif them one. wtf? almost die sia... cannot tahan. lols. bu my results have significant improvements.thanks charmaine stella zixin and shiling.

3e7. it wasnt a very memorable year.. but at least i got a few ppl thats close wif me. felicia helped me a lot this year, along wif vannessa and val. pok tried to bond me wif the guys, with no avail. jeslyne stead wif pok =.=

Ahh yes. wenxun. hes the onli guy worth remembering frm the previous group i was in.
Hes the onli guy to accept my request to go expo also.... out of 11 people. very touched leh me at that time...also i like to thank him for maintain contact even till now... and the efforts that he had put in..

Ahh...2e5 gers. the onli group that is still ever close towards me. but the feeling is a bit different now..especially with my disconnection wif the guys group. but nevertheless, they are still close frens with me. wait till u see an xmas present given by 1 of them... zzz.

(EDIT)

Heres Andrea, upon receiving her Private Personal Photo. PPP. yes. Andrea is the online chat buddy that i've been telling my stuff to. shes there to listen, and aid me. zixin also. lols. i help her last time..so she help me. Andrea also request a long long biography... so heres one. LONG LONG BIOGRAPHY. okay done.

(/EDIT)

And with this. 2007 comes to a close. 2008 will be an even better year. Why? cause the Holy Spirit is with me throughout the entire next year. Blesseth is the Lord, which blesseth the love He has in me :)

2007-12-29T21:57:00.001+08:00

THURS.
Celebrated my bro's bdae

with cg frens. 1stly lets have some pictures.

DRUM ROLL.

My bro's bdae la. blow cake.. receive present.. skin leh bodoh. ex gift...

den.. on to some random crap photo taking. captions on. ;)

woah. kana blown off the hand sia.

Testing my Shuriken throwing skills. Aw also threw. but duno y my patturn so wierd...

This one is Getting Rdy to throw stance. wh nice stance sia

is this suppose to be some dance laveen wanted? .?

err.. Testing. i look awkward here.

ok. my face damn jiaobin here. =.=

Woah. Aw straight as a pole. and i duno do what stance again. nice piccy.

" Reach out for the stars above, Saviour freedom truth and love~ "

woots. attacking the camera man. blocked aw also =x

The Sacred Object. The She Li Zi of Christmas. The Cap.

duno y Aw damn happy here sia. tio capture by camera. =x

The Cap is absorbing the CHRISTMAS SPIRIT. OMG!!

Enjoy the Essence, of the Night Life.

" I lay my love on you, So show me what to do..."

Quan Jia Fu. The family pet rabbit in front.

My bro holding a minature...Effiel Tower? looks like it. =x

The Formal Pose.

The Act Shuai But Cannot Make It Pose.

" If u wan to cut down this tree, aim here. the center of equillibrum for this tree."

My bro shy sia. take photo wif chiobu

2nd shy-ed pic

Quan Jia Fu @ Vivo

Aw Ming

Bros.

The Brothers.

2nd Quan Jia Fu-ed Pic.

The Guys~ lazing around.

*Poof* and laoshi magically appears

" Eh Go away leh. Guys Photo Leh!"

And Thats How the Cookie Crumbles.

Friday.

1stly i wish to share my joy. see how happy i am?

Lars. this is the Thanksgiving or whateva u call it day. People Present..~~~

woah this is fierce sia. the gals in front like gona fight like tt. and i duno what i am doing wif laveen again. =.=

had Haagen Daz ROUND 2. this time ate a lot. yeah. to compensate for last time each onli 1 bowl. =x.

End~

2007-12-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

OK! MY SINGLE HAND PHOTO TAKING SKILLS REALLY SUCKS

err.. blurred me kc and joshua

breathtaking view

breathtaking view 2

THE flame.. of life, salvation, and whatnot.

blurred version of my and kc =.=

Breathtaking view 3 with blurred ceaser's face

me wif wenxun.

well. must stress its volunteerary... so cant really force ppl come.. but den.. some ppl last min ps or when better things comes along den they dun come.. a bit disappointed... but its they who missed out...

I opened the door. its up the u all to invite Him in.

2007-12-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

well.. went to cell group ytd. guess wad? they got a baby bird!

well.. i dun dare hold the bird.. so din take a photo with it. it also pooped on vedelene's hand.. all the more i dun dare hold. i think i offended nick.. zzz. soo.. i erred. whats else is new. at least they told me.. taken a mental note =)

hais. now duno y develop stage fright. my confidence is sapping low..again. zzz. not as confident and self-centered as last time.. i suppose...

2007-12-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

erh hrms. testing photos.. one two... okay. into position.

yeah. and these were the people present for the steamboat...okay. 1st thing 1st. ACCIDENTS HAPPENED AT THE STEAMBOAT.

like. yuting manxuan yimei shihui that side de steamboat de hotplate CHAO DAR. and jianan go take the big big mussel keep squirting hot water over everybody. valerie's way of "lowering" food into the steamboat splash everybody...

overall.. okay la. can sae enjoyed myself. i duno lar. still feel quite mix-up...

took some photos outside MRT.. den onto orchard. taoyee jianan shihui yuting left.

okay.. this is me taking the photo. noob shot =.=

they sae a picture worth a thousand words... so i saved up on the typing. =)

2007-12-17T00:12:00.001+08:00

按着alt,按22307
按着alt,按35806
按着alt,按24555
按着alt,按20048

IT WILL HACK UR WHOLE SYSTEM! OMG OMG. IT WILL ALSO CAUSE SG TO SELF DESTRUCT! DO NOT PRESS!!!

2007-12-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

Faith. renewed. disorientated.

Current people who got the gist of the meaning
->Andrea.
->Feng Rong.
->God

all are free to make guesses =)

2007-12-16T19:38:00.000+08:00

this are the attached photos of the Amazing Race.

Team Fire

Fire

and Fire again.

this one is w192. well.. not all here but den.. =)

and yes, i know my hair looks wierd. =.= im not a poser you know...

and sorry for the boring post. someone said something that irritated me today. relax its not a person of a same age as me...

2007-12-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

yay. my "aftermath" of ytd acted up.

woke at 7.30. reach kc hse at 8.40.. ya. so he fetched me and kok wee to church.... alls well and such, the highlight is behind..

ate lunch, duck rice.. lala~ den go east coast park. my team was Li wei as leader, me, my brother, Joshua, Ow, Jonathan, Ling ling and Sally. at first got some stupid team name as JJFFLLS. Jos Jon Feng Feng Li Ling Sally. =.= crap name, den came out wif FIRE. well... simple yet innovative.? i think.

den come up wif cheer. some wierd wierd cheers trys, which led to our final cheer.

who are who are who are we?
We are we are we are who?
who are we?
we are who?
who are we?
we are Fire, we're hot, we cant b stopped.
we are fire, we're hot, we cant b stopped.

well...simple yet catchy. lols.

the other team called Victory. their cheer incalcated some Energy song or wad.. lols

1st C.P.

Bedok jetty.

This bring back memories...rite jianan? i think hes the onli scout reading this blog. tt time we were late for like.. 1hr 30 mins? lols. den slping tt time got pine cone poking...

back to reality. soo.. we reach there, I FOUND THE CLUE!! but den they sae they also found the clue. zz. so i threw it back and ran to them. den rain... and we were stupidly looking for the clue. lols. when i went back to check.. ITS GONE. lucky ling ling smart.. she noticed that the uncle nearby a bit suspicous.. den ask him. REALLY GOT. after we have been there for like so damn long... and i found it right after i reached there. zzz. wtf.

2nd CP.

Macdonald. there. wtf?! gone. well.. someone did something probihited... =x. my leg is ACTING UP. had to walk the whole way and drag down the team...zzz..reached there, found Peppermint latte at coffebean den find a grafftti. I FOUND IT. woohoo. 2nd floor at some wierd wierd restaurent backdoor. =.=.

3rd CP.

walk down.. den laveen called and told us we walk wrong direction. yay. woohoo. so we walk back down again.. we had to fill a bucket of water with half broken cups. everyone was damn pia sia...lols

4th CP. carpark...

well. i had to go asking every passerby if the carkpark was E1. zzz. but den passed it quickly alr.

ran back to starting point. 2nd.. but den the 1st is frm our cell grp :) soo.. final task. buy something that adds up to $30.40. each 10c difference = -1 marks. laveen they all clever. 9 x $3 chicken rice = $27. den 2 packet add rice, =$28. 2 canned drinks, $1.20 e.a, this adding up to a grand total or $30.40. =)

ate dinner... slack a bit, den final competition. its ORANGE EATING COMPETITION. wtf. its all disgusting. but Fire made it 2nd and Victory made it 1st. dun underestimate the power of trisha and vanderline.

results announce, Victory made it 1st, and we made it 2nd. $220 Haagen daz voucher OURS. woohoo! G-O-O-D-J-O-B goodjob, goodjob~

friday gng pigging out after the cell grp meeting. YEAH~

2007-12-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

i duno y, but today i really feel like thanking God in his will and options for me.

Firstly, God cre8ted opportunities for both my scouts life and wif them. duno what to call them... nvm dun dwell on that. soo.. back to the original story.

went to scouts. well... ok-ok overall averge till the end of the day. God has gave me an opportunity, in form of our sir helping us solve the problem.. quite surprised... but... God is amazing.

den... well.. initially i had a lunch date with li wei.. but den sir ask gng eat tgt rite... den eat lo.. i duno lar. the situation is improving... slowly but steadily. even as i type "yisen" is talking to me. =.= damn lame..lols

ok he ended the convie. back to what i was saeing.. so God gave me a choice. i was at home.. duno wan to go anot.. planning maybe.. slp through.. or b late.. but den canot sleep any later den 6pm. duno y... den go down tt time 153 came DIRECTLY. and when its supposed to jam at this hour, IT DIDNT. all this got me thinking... and den i prayed... i think that God is creating opportunities... but ultimately, the choice is mine and i made the right one.

and i had the preparation time i needed, when i just mentioned once to jiale.. well.. its sorta of a miscommunication.. but serves a good cause.

well.. soccer was fun. 1st talk abt injures. i got hit on both legs, both feet got blisters and abrasions. emmanuel was like limping back home.. kenny jiale and wenxun are uninjured. =.=

emmanuel offered me and kenny his mother's muffin =.=

err.. i made use of the Law of Reflection, kicked the ball, bounced off the wall, bounced off wenxun's butt, and goal. xD

wonder is there a phobia that means scared of taking initiative or making contact with a certain person =.=

with the current state of my foot.. i wonder how am i gonna complete the race tml.. zzz

2007-12-07T13:56:00.001+08:00

well.. i guessed some people took it the wrong way. pls read the disclaimer at the top of the previous post.

just went to kovan for lunch wif my brother. ate curry chicken and he ate sesame oil chicken. and den went kovan buy 2 spring chicken. on our way home saw the gerguides. lols.

gng to cell group ltr. at 7.30. den ltr bible study. =)

Dear Lord. did what i had done counts as a sin of commission?

2007-12-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

I'LL LIKE TO ANNOUNCE THAT IN THE FOLLOWING POST I AM PURELY REFERING TO MYSELF, AND MY EMOTIONAL STATE OF WELL-BEING AT THAT TIME. THIS POST HAVE NO INTENTION OF HURTING ANYBODY, FOR IT IS MY BLOG AND IT IS MY WISH TO CONVEY WHAT I WAS FEELING AT THAT CURRENT POINT OF TIME TO THOSE THAT WISH TO KNOW OR SENSITIVE TO WHAT I FEEL.THOSE MAY FEEL OFFENDED PLEASE PLEASE USE THAT SMALL RED BUTTON AT THE TOP RIGHT HAND CORNER OF THIS PAGE WITH AN X MARKED ON IT.

Dear Heavenly Father, take this as my prayer to you as well.

101th~ post. sounds like dalmations..

1stly i like to....share a quote that liwei said at bible study. God sent Jesus to die on the cross, to forgive our sins. He has alr forgiven us, to forgive people in return. its not the actuall contextual quote.. but thats arnd what he implied. i had alr forgiven all that had done me wrong no matter how little or big it may seem, and now i like to sae that no guilt is too big for me or you to forgive. we are all sinners, on equal ground and basis. no one is higher or of a bigger status except The Trinity.

yeah. not quite looking forward to the chalet, as i alr expected how it would become... sorry shihui. dun mean to spoil it for me... but as u said, i dun have to initiate anything alr. i wish to prove that i wasnt humoured. truthfully the point is not proven till now, for which wenxun and jiale did prove that fact only. :) but still.. im sorry to the both of them for being unreactive (?) to them during the chalet. they were in that group... and i wasnt sure of what that group viewed me as. and my emotional state of well being at that time was simply stressful. shihui said... they were sincere.. but my eyes told me that they were enjoying it without me, and onli evidential evidence like photos den did they ask for my company. that sparked off my thinking of them wanting it to seem like we were enjoying ourself, including me. sorry. i wasnt in the e7 sakae photos, and similarly, i wont be in the chalet photo, except for one, which yuting wanted to take photo wif me. i dont really feel any attachment to my secondary school life right now, as the more i dwell on it, the more it will pull down my emotional state of well-being. the only people that will lead me to think positive abt my secondary school life are the 2e5 gers, fel, van, wenxun. jiale and the 3e7 other gers are neutral. thats all. the rest known to me have burdened me one way or the other.

So Father, help me to live my life better. all this have happened as i have made the wrong choice in dealing problems. This is a test of faith in you, and for i will not lose the faith that u have in me, as well as i have in you. i have rebelled against you, and for that, i wish to return to u.

As i had said, the chalet was stressful to me... and im thankful to the Lord for being with me when im feeling overstressed. thank you for sending the 2e5 gers to be with me when i was feeling stressed.

the 1st day.

met wenxun and jiale at plaza sing. wenxun is late. again. sometimes i wish that he would be more consious of the time... as being on time is being respectful to the other party also.. as what i feel... bought P.osh cakes as bdae presents for ziyu and taoyee. played arcade cause manxuan wanted para and i wanted DDR. long time nvr touch. jiale and wenxun tenken-ed. den we took the green train to pasir ris.

when we reached the chalet, my heart just sanked. i wasnt prepared for the guys to b there... its a natural reaction.. i normally go to scouts also always like that. as expected.. they too, been theirselves and just interacted with themselves, so as my eyes tells me. day 1 was okay.. in all.

and they went to cycle. i backed out halfway. wasnt ready and was looking for some sort of way to backout... and manxuan came to the rescue. i thought she wanted to head directly back to the chalet, so i went back to wait for her. well...halfway saw nicholas and the gang.. and they came to the chalet to slack.

and.. sorry shihui, wanni, ziyu, and whoever that was pissed. wrong move by me.

sometimes i just dont understand them. they claimed i was too close to the gers, and im leaving them out, so they left me out on purpose? and completely? 1stly, i wish to sae that i have a balanced social life, and by cutting my out, im will be closer to the gers. thats for sure.

so.. thats practially what i did through out the chalet. nothing. and when i have nothing to do, i ps2-ed. seriously, it was boring if not for the gals that was there. the only and ONLY time that counts that i interacted wif the guys. and onli 2-4 guys was at the arcade. spked to jiale and wenxun as always, and 1st and only sentence that i conversed wif emmanuel and kenny and 1st and only sentence they said to me. " Feng Rong, want to play Daytona? " and thats it. :) quite an accomplishment eh? =.=

well, im not complaining.

talked with wenni, yimei, yuting, valerie at night... well.. when they left for the jetty or wherever they went, i was able to get rid of the stress...eventually. the salty evening air of the ocean was soothing, as well was sticky. zzz. yuting appeared as the "Orange Floating Shirt" and valerie as " China/Egyptian Ger". Wanni create a whole new set of moves... which complements the new year =x. so...60% of the time they were talking about topics which i duno.. like Toro gossips and whatnot.. but still.. one of the highlights of the chalet for me.

den onwards to the movies. i enjoyed Transformers and the duno what Loser show.. and 13 was gross. the other ghost show i slpt throughout.. so cant rate.

burger king was.. akward. sitting opposite a guy that ignored me and i ignored him during scouts.. and shihui expect us to talk. pls.. i cant even talk in front of him alr... and u expect me to talk to him? a bit overexpecting ar...

i admit, mostly im trying to find chances to b away from them... like at burger king where shihui went back to take her things, i went wif her, wanni they all wan buy tidbits i went with them...

oh ya. jianan did talk to me. on day 2. he said "sit here with us lar" at the coffee shop on Day 2 morning. with him talking so nicely to me, how could i refuse? but he went off buying mac. and he ended up sitting away again. so its back to square one.

besides, normally went i really did talk to them on msn, i did to ample prepare myself emotionally. like for 5-20 minutes before speaking to them. running through things to take note to do and not to do. like.. must b frenly, polite, dun shoot them, dun do this, dun do that, musnt overeact, mustnt overthink, mustnt... and get really turned off when some people just gave me one word or two word reply and expect to end the convie. i dont even try alr.

day 2. raining. stuck inside chalet. stress and discomfort is overbuilding, being cooped up with them. had to go out take a breather for 2-3 times. regreted nvr go to white sands with wenxun and jiale, but it was easy on the wallet =0 spent $10 in the 1st night on arcade. zz

discomfort gone at 7pm. cause my father came and fetched me home. =) he didnt know got 2 costa sands resort sia..zzz waited for him for 15 mins after yuting reached the chalet.

and my mother had to probe and ask me what happened to the chalet. guess the stress released as tears again. really breaks my heart as to see my mother care so much and im making her worry abt me... God bless her...

well.. in TRUTH. i didnt really have to leave on day 2. i could have cancelled the bible study on thurs. but just went along with it as i didnt have the heart to stay on. sorry people.. but i shouldnt lie.

THurs. went for bible study / dinner. yes. i can proudly say im a christian now. and i believe that God is around us. and i know Him better through this bible study, and through liwei. thanks liwei. and thanks to my brother also. he was there. :) gng for bible study again tml... after cell group meeting. having the Amazing Race : Singapore Edition on sunday. cant wait. =)

In Jesus name, i convey to You as well, amen.

2007-12-03T22:23:00.000+08:00

100th post.

and im gona compile 3 days into 1.

Friday. went prawning for prawns. or to be more precise, shrimps. its those little crustaetions (smth like that) wif pincers... yes prawns have pincers.... and a cute little head which u have to pluck off in order to eat them =) reached bishan TEENY WEENY late..like 30 mins? =p yeah. went to withdraw money frm a SUPER long queue that weihao thought i got lost =.= den took bus 13 to Salvation Army there...

30 DOLLARS FOR 3 HOUR. sibei pain-ed. but had fun la. those pincers pinching my fingers.. =.= and prawned 10 prawns? arnd there la.. my bro and joshua was pawning prawns...rest had avg luck, excluding nicholas. well.. ppl call him Ow because of his surname.. but that reminds me of my DM. zz.

den we BBQ ON THE SPOT. woohoo. like.. 300 prawns in total (the uncle gave us some)...provided chilli and salt, and feasted. after tt the "overaged" guys ordered beer... which i koped. valerdin (smth like tt) underage also drink sia...drink like nobody's buisness. especially funni cause she drank frm Ow's cup.. and he said.. Wait... leme clarify one thing... THATS MY CUP! lols.

den we play some lame game.. 1 frog - jump into the water - plomp. 2 frog 2 frong -jump into the water jump into the water - plomp plomp. zzz.. luck i was sharp.. and unfortunately weihao and joshua wasnt. weihao went hailing a taxi... and gave some unknown destination.. like Jalan Lekaruya? at 2am. and joshua kissed a prawn. which den he went into a kissing-guys frenzy. =.=

cabbed home. reached 2.30. which i had scouts tml...zzz

Sat.

DONT FEEL LIKE GNG SCOUTS. managed to slip away. yeah. 12 i zao le

went to cell grp. reach there 1.30? they were playing dog and bone.. unfortunately, i sprained my back cause dodged too agiley. =.= selina is a good cell grp leader sia. although i dun see the reason why she love America Next Top Model so much. i also got watch.. for entertainment purpose onli..

yeah.. den ltr slacked by playing the guitar a bit...and cabbed home again. luck i got my bro sia... 50.50 not so ex. ahaha..

Sun

woke up at 7.15. den went to expo. which unfortunately i had to shit in tampines while waiting for KC. btw KC's my cuzzion. or.. bro? he saes same. lols. most sian part is.. i HAD TO GO HOME FOR TUITION AT 1pm. too early. z. and i was nodding my head off ... almost slept in tuition. =.=

and someone forgot to do something...

Mon.

just rotted at home...

next day chalet...frankly. not looking forward to it. see how it goes first ba.
yes, u claimed that my facial features were dulan-ish at neutral. i change. now u give me that kind of face. ur "neutral" face? and im suppose to keep my happy face? thanks a lot. :)

2007-11-27T22:23:00.000+08:00

1stly... ORH SHIHUI

and here i go. recently, attended a church session at CHC again. why? yes.. the reason being, i went to their cell group bbq.. and i duno.. fun and such? den went back lo. since nowadays also no one ask me out and no one to ask out..the bbq. great la. =) lols..den the sermon.. duno y seems like related to my life again. As "forgot who" refused to drink from the river of bitterness at Marah, as Jesus refused to drink the sour thingy mixed wif gall b4 he died as cross, i rejected the bitterness in my heart, xD, and move towards Ellines. (think is like that spell). its only 1 day's journey, or...8km away. =.= i walk 20km ++ in a day now tell me walk 8km. NO KICK. yeah. sermon was interesting... xD

also a bit paiseh la. so long nvr go den popout suddenly.. but these are not to stay. yeah. lols. den went to changi airport T1 have lunch~. at first wan eat...popeye? nvr hear b4.. but den weihao they all complain ex. den went to burger king. the caesar ar.. (think is like tt spell.) wan hit on the cashier can hit until the line frm no body become big line sia. and joshua (nt the scout one) scold caeser like halal (think also) gers in front of a malay family. woohoo. :)

well. went quite well that day. and fixed friday go pawn prawns. =) and at home maple and crap till tues le. wed at least gng out..i think. really apprehensive when he told me he~ was going. =.= at most leave early lor..

oh ya. i know i told some people.. some of my personal stuff i wanted to tell them.. like the recouncilation wif me brother? i think thats quite an achievement.. both on his and my part. im even happier to announce that he gave a testimoney on the bbq day.. and a paragraph dedicated to me. he said we had become closer and i even entrusted him wif some problems of my life.. well.. he did help.. but no effect. lols. appreciate the effort.

wad to say. enjoying the best of my 2months. after that den must sink back into marah again. zzz... must secure camp and supplies in ellines 1st ba.

2007-11-21T21:22:00.000+08:00

cant believe i watched channel U den " Duno who talking abt Confusious saying" prolly nth better to do. but its something like my book =.= all relating back to the same thing

note to self : its not healthy to think that much. and it all holds in the perspective. =)

the thing that got me interested in that TV show is the stories.. like one, it saes a ger wif no confidence.. den she go inside a shop. saw a very pretty headdress. when she put it on, she looked in the mirror. she felt as she is the most pretty lady on earth. she bought it, and happily ran out of the shop. on the way, she knocked into a old man. she said sorry, and cont ran out. everyone saw her as a pretty ger, and even a guy as her for date. that never happened b4.. but. when she went back to the shop to buy something nicer, the old man said " you dropped your headdress"

this shows confidence is what the world views us as. hold in strong in our heart :)

2007-11-16T21:40:00.000+08:00

today ran to and fro to kovan frm home.. zz. 3 loops. den went bishan buy scarf and woggle, traded to Melaka scouts, and went to amk to "study" wif yt and wanni.

they were studying! dun get me wrong! but just that when i reached there they din study le =.=

Borrowed books. gonna make notes here to share wif the public... =)

SELF ESTEEM

In order to be happy, have good relationships, and be psycologically balanced, a erson has to feel good about himself. this means we literally love love ourselves and this self love is called SELF ESTEEM

Lets have 3 choices.

1) Choosing what Feels good
2) Choosing what makes you looks good
3) choosing to do what is good or right

ok.. at first i also very confused.. all seem the same.. until the bk explained.

1) for instance.. Feels good. like having binges even u know when ur suppose to go on diet. cause it makes u FEELS good. practically it means it robs you of your self control. YOUR ACTIONS ARE DICTATED BY YOUR HABITS AND IMPULSES

.When you make a decsion that goes against your true inner desires, you are in effect a slave to your cravings. Hence you are not free and indepent.. and it eats away your SELF ESTEEM

2) when u do something that makes you look good, but you know its wrong, you are not living for yourself, but onli for an image. for instance.. smoking. =). when we are driven by .. EGO we do things that will project the right image and we will b consumed with money, power, control, vanity...things of worldly value. your choices are not on what IS good, but rather what makes u .. LOOK good when u live to support an image your are .. DEPENDENT ON OTHERS TO FEED YOUR EGO. this is .. NOT freedom

:)

heres a lifelong lesson. XD frm David J.Lieberman.

2007-11-13T23:29:00.000+08:00

Finally. tues and i haven blog abt the Melaka trip. ltr forget everything..

1st day.

meet at sch at 8am. check passport and such.. den sit bus to the bus terminal.. den change bus. reach sg custom, den change bus again. den go slp..~~~

Jiale slping~

me slping and joshua posed for the photo =.=

slp like that for like..4 hours? den we reach the hotel. its called. COMFORTABLE INN HOTEL. woah. such creativity, such intellect, such innovation. COMFORTABLE INN sia.

den we went right below our HOTEL for lunch. this is the signboard

looks quite zai sia. yeah. the food was zai. we had to wait for all the food to arrive b4 we eat sia. photos again...

scrumptous pizza eh?

and ian secretly took photo of me when im pouring the pepsi. zz.

me cutting the pizza. =)

the pizza nice sia. and i ate a lot. =x..

den we walked 1 big round arnd the mahkota shopping center b4 reaching sixfort sch (think is like tt spell)..

soo.. we went in the sch. a bit gong gong like duno do what.. until i think their troop leader approached us. fall in, den duno wad form inner circle and outer circle. throw ball of yarn, den u got it u intro. =.=

den my patrol was to head off to the check point 2. omg. pass rubberbands on toothpick. and the toothpick kiap between lips. wad 2 say. damn wierd feeling. can feel the other ppl breathing sia. cannot control den drop rubber band. drop liao cut straw. WTF. gone... but in the end we cheated a bit and won =)

checkpoint 3. tug of war. the trick to it is to run backwards instead of pulling. lol. ya.. had a few laughs here.

checkpoint 1. disgusting checkpoint. we are supposed to find mentos hidden in a bowl of flour. NO USING HANDS. use mouth lor.. OMG damn disgusting. mouth put inside.. den whole mouth got dough. flour + saliva = dough. =.= pictures here

duno who is this..

i think this is me. =.=

we had to tie our legs up and hop over poles to get to the table

my reaction after everything. yucks. saliva dough.

leme introduce. this is Joel in Flour mode. im also in Flour mode. =x

yeah. knew him and matthew in this exchange. all of us watch naruto and bleach sia. common interest. =)

and this is matthew. all of us were in FLour mode... and this is the reason why.. (following photo.)

as u all can see, we were rained upon by the incoming snow. well. the snow sorta got caught all over our body.. so like that =.=

the flour SIBEI hard 2 wash off.. pants in incorrigible state. zzz

dinner ate frm newton. i ate the LEI CHA. OMG FULL VEG. CANT EAT. and the soup is HORRIBLE. YUCK. had to go buy double-broiled soup to wash it down.... plus a ice-kachang =).

den OTOT. phew. and the ARCADE THERE NO DRUM, DDR, OR GUITAR. siannn... but went shopping..spent like 100 RM...9.30 went back hotel rest. oh ya. i bought the damn big bag of cuttlefish. cant eat finish by 3 days sia =x

Day 2.

woke at 6. den breakfast eat oppos de mee rubus. yuck. onli chilli no taste. + 1 plain prata. den we go A Famosa. water theme park. 10-12pm pose for photos =.= den we ate chicken rice... and 2-4 played the whole way. there was this family slide.. sit air float go down one, jiale me shawn and yanxiang keep siting sia. the boat almost flip out of the slide. =.= den i was the 1st one to try the verticle slide. the single slide with a amazingly steep angle. surprisingly, its the other one that hurt. slide with alt steep slop, 3 unsteep slops. my butt hurt sia. each time fly... den reach the bottom still ski on the water.. =.=

thats calvin. and me by the side. =)

waited for the bus like ages sia. supposely 5pm reach, but reach at 6.15 NO NIGHT MARKET CAUSE OF THEM .z dinner ate delicious nonya though. the chilli.. is SHIOCK. omg. love the food..

us waiting for hotel. notice that i was falling asleep...

den went back hotel slacked the whole night...

Day 3.

ITS RAINING!. woohoo. no need go visit places of interest, since mostly no shelter =) den everybody squeeze into my room sia.. 21 people in a 2 person room. zzz den OTOT at mall again. spent finish all my money, den go back hotel. jiale keep shiting at the shopping center sia, cause hotel de toilet is squat de. shopping center is sit de =x den go back sg le. the damn bus late again. wtf. in the end we reach sg at 8..reach zh at 9. =.=

sir really movtivated me on my way back to zh sia.. :)

2007-11-09T21:57:00.000+08:00

ok.. now swelling up wif mixed emotions of fury-contempt-self-pity-self-denial-sorrow-worthlessness-unfairness. pretty much all negative. figured numbing all of these feelings will b easier. but easier said den done. each day saw a lot of things to remind me of these feelings sia..so dun blame me if i was high the next moment and cold the next.. i prolly saw smth that reminded me of the awful present.

taiping tml. without my 2 BEST FRENS. so hartbroken sia. nvm. will see them for the whole or nxt yr anyway. still got enough time to CARE for each other.

spend the whole day playing Dofus. sry fel. must rest early today.. dun wan waste to much energy on gng out.. i think..

duno how long i can keep up with this. u might not b able to see me the next day. when this blog collapse, so will my life :)

2007-11-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

ok. my eyes actually watered when i saw her blog...dunno if shes refering to me.. but.. if it was im touched. =.= giving it a 2 months cooldwn period. if thats enough.

nowadays seem rather boring.. i think i am looking at someone thats following in my footstep sia.. but still, im rather happy for him that he has at least another grp of frens that will allow him to cooldwn wif his relationship... as for me.. i onli have the opposite gender, and the problem worsened without my knowledge.... note to him. really. you are really overthinking.. like i did last time unknowingly. its hard to believe me without evidence, but frm my point of view, u really are. i was once like that.. and now i see clearly your situation...

sat gng malacca. secretly i was actually please to hear tt onli jiale and a few unprominent sec 3 are gng. wont have to see their faces and tense. ya. unable to celebrate jianan and yuting and wish zheng feng bdae... all 3 on 11 nov sia. a bit regret la.. but on the other hand, i will b missing yt and jianan's celebration. means they will b more un-restrained. enjoy urself on mdae hor. ( without sacarsm )

and i prefer to go back to taiping sia.. miss the ppl dere lols.

if this is what the mean by the teenage growing stage, i will prefer to remain childish and immature always... at least i am not burden by affairs of others..

to her and those that were once considered me as fren : the problem is. i dun believe in myself. the former is buidling up my confidence, but the latter isnt. who am i to believe in myself after all that the latter distrusted me with...Friend. i thank u frm the bottom of my heart.

2007-11-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

smth big to post.

lecia wans to play, yet she cant afford to play. pls la. ur fren sae find u all. we did. and this is wad happen. why dun u just go to 3e4 and ask him/her to help u sia...

oh ya. and tdae is officially my last day of sch... u asking me abt friday? i will be sick on friday. in fact, a whole big grp of my class will b sick on friday... seems like a scam? noooo~, we just caught the viral infection frm felicia... :)

tdae went to bishan 1st b4 guitar.. was trying to slp on the bus when someone touched my thigh. OMG. bus rapist? i shocked-up. it was xiaohan. =.= long time no see sia. den go bishan play V4. played glide, zenith, R#1, We Are, Timepiece (PASSED HOR. CAICAI AND FEL I PASSED), ino-coil. $4 sia.. ex. den mother fetch us to guitar.

guitar.. eat dinner. was trying to tell wx that.. its hard to face ppl that are backstabbing u behind ur back. and u have to give a smile towards them despite what they did. AND u have to face them everyday in your sch life. omg. wx i was not refering to u hor.. dun b mistaken. i was not refering to anyone in our ex-grp also.

and now anthia has deeply hurt my feelings lar. she told me her problems.. told b abt how unfair jude has treated her. AND now she saes IM JUST LIKE JUDE. couldnt b more insulted lar. i helped her leh.. and now she saes im jude... and now shes ignoring me like im in the wrong liao that. anthia. i din do anything to u okay. i dun deserve this.

this will be the 1st and last time i will b posting this. dun worry ppl u dun have to bother abt this. i will settle this myself one :)

den go play drum again lols. saw ppl play para sia. i buey song, went there and put credit. and thrashed their face... ahaha. high score ranking got my name liao. 1ST. :)

haiss.. HOLIDAES LE. and a lot of chalets coming. see can "chalet" in fel hse anot. =x

2007-11-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

first and foremost, i have included my Parapara Paradise and DDR playlist in the music section. =)

den.. its onto the 2days that just past.

scouts.. pretty much the same. heard things again.. same old same old.. at least i got talk to the other two though.. slowly build it up. at least i have a good view of who they are now =)

den.. went back hope slp.. till 4.30. mx sudden call me sae 5pm sell ice cream at hougang ave 2 blk 705. panic. duno where issit. after calling like 3 frens and smsing, i look up the street directory. its oppos my hse. =.= but i went to the bus-stop to wait for barh hirh pia and zhui to arrive.. ltr they lost den its gg.

reach there tt time, the uncle sae thought its 1st timer, nvr prepare stocks. gone. den we also cant do anything.. went to hougang there, yanchang and emmanuel hse there de bball court play bball. it brings back memories sia... but in the end i din play. scared lose face lol. hirh + pia + zhiwei challenge some stranger.. lost 10-11. the other team too aggresive. =.= zhui me and barh play psp in shelter. lol.

den walk wif zhiwei to hougang mall, den eat KFC. i look at hirh in a diff light sia.. no money still treat ppl =.= den we go watch the "ki-tang". very eerie and mysterious sia. wad god possession and such.. i watch den gong gong all the way. hirh also 1st time watch. pia was trying to explain wad happened... and i think zhui also duno duno.. but he gt watch b4. barh scared =x

in the end all talking abt religious faith =.= den go hirh and zhui's hse thon. pia wack me twice sia.. got headache once =.= pained. and zhui play wif me halo 2. duno how 2 play keep kana kill. =x pia force us to b awake till 4pm..den duno y suddenly allow us go slp sia. lol. oh ya. had some campbell chicken soup + luncheon meat. wierd combi.. but edible. slpt.

nxt morn, went s-11 eat breakfast.. buy bubble tea den go zhui's fren hse borrow xbox game.. fifa 2005 and n4spd black edition or smth. but i nt use to xbox de controller.. =.= in the end i play psp and kope song frm hirh. hirh also kope mine. xD go blogging awhile.. den go home le. tio scam sia. thought gng shopping.. in the end my mother zao and i left at home. nth to do, so i fix the playlist and dl songs.. thats all fer today.

really cant talk ppl talking behind my back.. esp im now doing my best to not b enemies... really feel like scolding them all in my blog.. but i thought against the better of that.. and i promised ppl not to also..

2007-11-03T01:13:00.001+08:00

LARs, earned 10++ today.

tdae go work for evergreen. at first very apprehensive de... ya. but wif hae-hirh-pia-zhui-cai-bah combo, better le. xD.

went to j8 at 4. met up wif pia cai hirh and zhui. den they sae the almost tio taiji or smth.. but nth happen la. they eat finish their cajun den go below de arcade. play drum : Newspaper, Fantastic Factory, Midnight Special, and some other song... hirh and pia jiayou at drum ar.den cai and zhui play some sibei old de version of ddr...while waiting for barh to come.

barh some at 5+ sia. =.= when she sae 3pm on her way... den made our way to yew tee. on train listen music and see caicai's caicai dance. (sounds wierd) get out tt time den duno y pia tio black matters. some banglah go find him taiji sia... but den he humji sae find backup den in the end dissappear. =.=

*censored* oh ya. i think play wif fire fun sia. gonna learn the burn hand trick frm pia. and pia keep doing the ice koleong thing.. =.= and the Paaoow. love their faces sia.

1st 2 block not v sucessful. but 3rd block sold 4, 4th sold 2. 4 blocks thanks to pia sell de. got 1 he sell cause he know how 2 talk canton. zzz.

earned 10++ la. btr den nth. hirh and barh clear sia. not bad. den hirh treat us to mac. =x den we pia last train back.. to amk. in the mrt pia and hirh keep doing the..."1 chance 1 chance... 5 min 5 min... 2 days 2 days.. okay okay?" and den duno wad bball moves like finger flick and spin duno wad =.= den it become giving each other a palm print on thigh sia. lolx

den my mother fetched them to hirh and zhui's hse to thon. so sad i cant go. gt scouts that was supposely canceled. zzz. ltr see ger guides kana tortured there. lol.

tml selling walls. hope cement powder gt enough ba.

btw pia, take care lar.. ya u sac a lot for her.. but den.. she really shouldnt treat u tt way lar... when tt phone call came in and u started talking... i duno wad to do sia. also like seem v bad for me to eavesdrop.. =.= ya... anything still gt us lar =)

and caicai go tt time do that thing in front of my mother sia.. omg. hope my mother wont anyhow think or sae. just hope she din see tt.

DOM AND CAICAI din SELL ANY ICECREAM. nvm u will sell tml. ltr more den me sia. jiayou!

Kaleidoscopic - Neutro-estastic. wadeva that means.

2007-11-01T23:44:00.000+08:00

Your Story

keep going...off into the distance
my tears of happiness from this kiss are yours alone
and so it begins, your own long, long story

so what if these joyful times make us want to cry waves of tears,
and the puddles they leave inspires me to sing?
the times we spent seem everlasting, holding out through time
and memories time leave causes us to weep in sorrow?

everyone, look at the sky
so full of twinkling new friends, waiting to meet you
you'll form your own bonds as you learn of the world,
and get your own map to follow.

keep going...off into the distance
my tears of happiness from this kiss are yours alone
someday, there will be a page
where countless new people walk into your life
i would be just one of the pictures in that page
even time would erase my existence
so keep going, off into the distance
don't look back, the stars awaits your encounters...
and so it begins, your own long, long story

2007-10-31T23:29:00.000+08:00

faults structured by ignorance.

cracks engulfed by distrust

flaws exposed by thoughts.

fragile.tattered.torn

actions seemed pointless

words that hurt

ideas that bind

eyes that repent.

overwhelmed.

ignoramus.

misunderstood

crashed.

am i really that complicated?...

2007-10-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

lol. now we all gt new names liao.

im "haerh-haerh", fel's "hirh-hirh" and justin is "caicai". manxuan is "barh-barh"

just for those ignorant, haerh means prawn, hirh means fish, cai means veggie (duh) and barh means meat.

fel damn wad sia. at arcade keep hinting sae "is this how u treat the person u like anot?" den use HER and me as anology.. wah. evil leh fel. =x

justin walk off twice.. the 2nd after saeing sorry fer the 1st. den fel angry sia =x. lol

and justin haven do XD face yet.

today that lyn or ling, a bit down sia. at first come in shout in my ear.. the next moment quieten down.. den kope my credit =.= aiya.. at least she cheered up. =)

bu zhi bu jue i use Para style to dance for Night of fire in freestyle mode. lawls.

session play tday. play..chikara, escape to the sky, and ~~Revolution~~. bonus stage i change to guitar and poor/missed the whole thing. session failed =x

caicai jiayou!. u can do it wan. she alr sae want u wan she also will agree de. =)

tmr O's. sian. diao. and. PREPARE TO GO TO LOWER MOTHER TONGUE LIAO (koped word frm tan soo lan) and im dragging yt wif me. ahaha. fel 3rd in class fer hmt. or 2nd. no chance of dropping de. zzz.

z. para still a bit wierd. cant dance like caicai. dun wan copy his style, but also wan inculcate my own style.. ddr at least know a bit of tatic. dun lift leg high high. =x

nvr know emiko kelian sia. life's unfair for her. dun sae her bad thing liao hor.

lyn/ling cheer up =) im here rite? so u can cheer up le.

tmr also sakae sia. must stuff until eat dinner also cannot. =)

and im gona copyright "Haerh" liao. ppl kope and infiltrated my copyright. plaguerism sia.

2007-10-29T20:16:00.000+08:00

LARs~ today more hyper a bit. frm the excessive tagging at ppl's blog. xD

ya. and see my, caicai's and fel's history of tags.

today feel better la. especially after communicating wif fel and yuting especially. =)

tml will b even better. it will b best if i dun see their jiaobin tml in class. =) and the 1st class in our block.

olvls drawing near. and JIANG is CRUSHING US WITH THE STRESS. zz.

2007-10-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

finally improving... my ddr. =) although janejana missed a few part in expert mode...

drum.. go there play still very laokui. failed We Are by TËЯRA

so.. 1+ reached ps. den go LJS do homework. caicai was there slping... and dom playing psp + trying to persuade me to buy wif him, using the wad shit coupon that LJS peeps gave us. i mx and fel pia homework.

3+ dom ask me buy lunner (lunch + dinner) i tell him dinner at 6. too early eat will full

4+ dom ask me buy lunner. i tell him now tea break. if wan skip dinner den eat Teanner. (tea break + dinner) tea break at 4, dinner at 6, so teanner at 5.. =)

ate Cajun chicken.. with man xuan koping the meat all the way.=.=

went back to arcade. caicai and dom kope my 1 credit, and i play drum.. anthony's effort was good =)

play para also. mingjie that grp came in and kope 2 stages. lol. but i still think my dancing style can improve one..

after tt managed 1 game of ddr. played janejana, breakdown, 1 random song, and the last one forgot. breakdown din get A. =.=

spent most of the time slacking outside though. dom was trying to do the breakdance moves.. i try la. but cant balance. dom.. omg. was making us laugh the whole time la. =x

jiale and wenxun and anthony came today. wonder y jiale and wenxun dun wan play the drum downstairs. =.= so wasted.

oh ya. b4 we go outside slack tt time got play like 3-4 credits of para. caicai was playing guitar. revolution by TËЯRA and timepiece by hirofumi sasaki. last song nvr hear b4. fel shoe break sia.. den go bata dere got a free pair. got skills bodoh.

thats today.

i chanced upon an anology. is this whole thing.. sort of linked up? and judging frm the previous posts, the core of the whole problem issit because of the gers? not every ger, but specifically the ones wif stead. it makes senses. the bfs of the steads see me and their ger so close they bs. den they tell it to others. the others see... den ya ya true.. and went on to further spread it down.

i wish to tell those ignorant tattertales, I KNOW THE GERS WAY BEFORE AND WAY LONGER than the e5 boys. and if u ask me to choose either to b frens only, i would choose the gers. after all, i had alr known them for 3 years. the quarrel wif wanni at sec1 cause of facills, i accused manxuan of stealing my hp without prove, den made public apology to the whole class, including to wanni, den pok and yuting stead, val and wenxun in class super frenly, den wenxun and yimei. ziyu sit wif kuangjun and kuangjun complain there very noisy. andrea doing stupid pronnouncations test wif me and clara and stella they all. wad Rendevous, Crossaint, etc etc... yuting best frens wif rapheal. and beatrice helping me wif that "ba gua" dnt project. PLS. THESE ARE MEMORIES I WONT FORGET. and frm the hurt and distrust i had wif the e5 ppl. i rather have the 2e5 gers... and my reputation is spoiled because of them too.

ya, i know the 2e5 gers wif stead are not on that frenly terms wif other guys except me, but they dont treat me as guy in the 1st place. our frenship alr overide sexual boundries. there is no male or female. we are FRIENDS. we treat each other with respect as the other party should have. they are like guys to me and im like a ger to them. and there u are behind watching this whole thing spectulating, assuming the worst for yourself.PLEASE.at that time u were as close to me as them. U COULD JUST ASK ME DIRECTLY. no need to analyse with tattertalers. i would give u the same respect u deserve too. frankly. i lost all for them.

they are my frens, and strengthening that point, they are my BEST frens. BEST until the extent of the impossiblity to STEAD. get that into your mind. and if u even suspect that i had intimate actions with them, please, that shows your insecurity towards them, and the lack of self confidence with yourself.

a lot of FRIENDS had suggested to me that i should take the first move to engage the boys. but den, if they alr had that mentality that I WANT TO SNATCH AWAY THEIR GF. they would alr look at me with different eyes. perhaps even to the extent of pretending to b my fren den find chance to backstab me. which they alr did unknowingly. there is no hope to find another guy fren in sch. these rumours are as infectious as an epidemic. unless those ppl who started the tattertales start to make amends to clear my reputation, i could not possibly make another guy fren in zh. constant exposure to rumours can cloud one's thinking.

well, i couldnt be left to rot in sch. so i had to find a better life, namely, DBG arcade. =) thanks to felicia. know dom, manxuan and caicai very well liao.. xD. den the rest take it slow and easy ba...

well. i hope that the steads, both the male and female party read this post. i do not wish to cause any misunderstands, including the TATTERTALERS going arnd spread wad crap like im DECLARING WAR WITH THE BFS or IM TRYING TO BREAK THEM UP. im gng to clarify here that IM NOT. im here to state my opinions and my views about the DISTORTED RUMOURS that is gng arnd like a pandemic. get these across those thick numbskulls of yours. and if u owe me an apology, u prolly do. its better that u apologise and get this whole thing over. similarily, if u think i had any misconception u can come and tell me, before this whole thing get out of hand, and i will gladly re-affirm that mistake. im stating my views, but are u, to ME and not spreading viruses throughout the cohort? im stating my views to the PUBLIC here. open for all to see, i DARE, do u DARE?

Kaleidoscopic personality - dulan

looking forward to then thonning at fel hse wif mx dom fel caicai and whoever else shes gonna invite =)

2007-10-28T13:08:00.000+08:00

Kimi Monogatari Your Story

todoke todoke tooku e
keep going, keep going, off into the distance
ima wo kiss kaizen namida azukete
my tears of happiness from this kiss are yours alone
hajimare, nagai ngai kimi monogatari
and so it begins, your own long, long story

namidatta namidatta ureshii toki ni nagashitai
so what if these joyful times make us want to cry waves of tears,
kirei namizautamari uta detai no wa nani?
and the puddles they leave inspires me to sing?

minna, miyo sara ni
everyone, look at the sky
matataiteriro hoshi no kazu hado no deai kara
so full of twinkling new friends, waiting to meet you
ari wo manandari, chizu wo morattari,
you'll form your own bonds as you learn of the world,
tsunagau beku
and get your own map to follow.

todoke todoke tooku e
keep going, keep going, off into the distance
ima wo kiss kaizen namida azukete
my tears of happiness from this kiss are yours alone
itsuka de kuru peiji ni
someday, there will be a page
hito no takutan no hitokazu deru
where countless new people walk into your life
hajimare, nagai ngai kimi monogatari
and so it begins, your own long, long story

2007-10-28T00:40:00.000+08:00

sat.

lets start with the happy things shall we.?

firstly, im pleased to announce that I AM IMPROVING IN DDR. yeah. breakdown din fail liao, and Candy unlimited can A sia. not bad not bad. improvements. felicia and caicai both happy for me. =)

den wierd-ly, shaun frm arcade used a very wierd greeting style to 'hello' me... =.=

met wenxun and jiale at ps.. as well as pok and jes.. pok seem to be ignoring my presense..but who cares? i dont need him or them to survive in this world. i need frens, not aquaintance. =)

felicia at first feel cold sia. den she ddr and her fever gone!. the miraclous healing rejuventating powers of DDR. dun underestimate it.

the caicai still very caicai sia. ate 2/3 of my cookie. make that 2/3 cookie +2 bites off my last cookie. =x

manxuan told me meet her at 6 sia.. but den when i slping till 5 tt time she call me go down..arnd 3. =.= 5 miss call and 2 unread message.

onto the not so good things.

reading through people's previous post... practically wenxun's blog was the only one surviving throughout. read his 2007 march - aug post. wad sucessful stayover at fr house.. fr wait damn long for their ssp and greeted him wif KUKU and NORSE. go lam hse bball. bc. go fr house see jianan jobchange. go fr house try unlock yondaime. my house is now alr empty for most of the time...

my 2007 march to june posts leh.. got

"den after sch. went up look fer dem. same childishness, same attitude. thats what makes us special i think. but.. ty and lam wan go sign up for lam's NEW tuition. at BUKIT TIMAH. woah."

"go the tuition centre.sec 3 amaths class VACANCY ALL FILLED. AHAHAHAH. wait. why am i luffing. wasted trip. zz. like going to go home tt time, ty sudden say.. 153 need walk VERY long... z. wtf. den i folo ty and lam back to his hse dere. the bus was dangerous sia. 2 prong attk. z. den lam wan me strip my pants sia. =.= suddenly all of us become so horny. xD. but. I MANAGED TO BLOCK OFF THEIR 2 PRONG ATTACK. just sae im pro. =)"

"soo.. the stayover at mi hse just past, and thats precisely what ima gona blog abt."

"soo. im posting 2 post at one time.. abt Eugene de chalet bah."

"1stly i like to sae.. HAPPY BDAE WANNI!!!"

"also remember my bball skills. =.= wx came up with a lot of names sia. Hakke Kuushou ( Air Palms ), Shippuden ( Wind Chronicles, no link i know ) and Kaiten ( Spin ).. zai names, but all misfired.."

"Operation S.T.A.O"

"Round 426. The most memorial catching. know why?. cause its the longest game ever. and guess whos the culprit? Jia Nan. Catcher duno how 2 run. pro-ed-ed-ed sia. nth to say. "

"Round 428. This is the time i tio bully. everyone sae I be catcher sia. din even open number. z. wtf?. nvm. based on my superior intellectual skills and agile and DIAPHANOUS characteristics (koped word frm emmanuel), im sure to catch them easily. unfortunately, things dun go as the planned. all of them camp at 1st lvl, but i stupid. look wrong place at 1st lvl. den i heard a idiot shout my name. Turned, and Tahdah. all of them were sitting there. I used Haste (from Maplestory), Vigor (from Diablo 2), and Sprint ( From WC3, DOTA, Slardar). with this all 3 combined, i managed to catch onli 1. shaun. z.but he good. he caught almost everyone, while i was stupidly finding them at the top lvl. =)"

yeah. that time i used a very hyper way and style for all my post... but now all that has been replaced by a sense of emptiness and finality. im not suppose to recall all these, as they are now my past, not present, and impossibily future.

wenxun, did u know that i wanted to learn Marvel VS Capcom frm u b4? seeing that u taught jiale, well..

and now scouts is just a area where i display my responsiblity. not emotions included. pls hor. if u all sae smth, dun let me hear it. especially its the person who i least expected it who said it. and u all expect me to look forward to the malacca trip? just dun get lost on the way, for if thats so i will be the one rejoycing. =)

and going by example, i think im gonna get cardiac tears like a certain ger in my class. my heart area sometimes got physical pain liao...

tml will b gng to my bro's church. again. after sacrificing church over them.

Kaleidoscopic Personality - Finality

2007-10-26T14:21:00.001+08:00

quick post b4 i go to ps.

frankly speaking, i dun feel like taking the class photo...feel so damn out of place..

den. fel told me..i am still insensative to ppl's feelings. cant sense van and jeslyne dulan tt time at recess time.. sorry van and jes. din notice..

ya... so i was insensative.. but i didnt notice at all. =.=

i alr have so lil frens le. dun wan lose even this few rite.? lol.

and den.. at the bus stop. i can sense jianan was avoiding me. more like see. after wx got up the bus he got up and zip. gone. we have nth to sae anyway.

haix.. thinking back. really tough for them, the gers and the guys to cope wif my insensitivity... they said i got change.. but dun feel like got leh.. still like keep quiet better la...

We are frens, but dont talk to each other. if thats what u all want. ignoring me all the time.

dun feel like gng for the malacca exchange program liao. wads the use. i will b alone stoning at one side anyway. 1 part of the sec 3 frm my class, the other frm the previous clique. gone liao lor.

gonna train my ddr and para ltr. if no ppl drumming den i play a bit..

2007-10-25T20:28:00.000+08:00

Thurs.

today ms ng flare her temper sia.. a bit sympatise wif her la.. but den... she shouldnt flare up and walk off. not right for teacher..

i got info frm reliable sources, wads wrong alr. like wtf? are u restricting my choice of frens because of that? omg. sorry hor. frens are MINE, and if u isolate me because of my choice of frens, too bad. ur not even worthy anyway. everyday see u in class summore. sooner or later i gonna begin my counter attack. anticipate it, and suffer.

well.. i THINK (stress on that word) someone misunderstood me. i do not refer to u...(not frm my class de). maybe misunderstood me.. worthless for me to say that much anyway. we(including those few) are frens, but do not know each other. wonder if thats what u all mean... see no actions, nth. perhaps u all are just half-hearted and not willing. and combined wif the previous paragraph, i guess its hard for us to be back as last time, since u all are close to that person anyway. after i launched my attack, it will b even harder.

If those ppl out there dun like my currently frens, i dont see u all doing anything to make me closer to u. sorry. if i have to accomodate u, does it mean I WILL NOT HAVE ANY FRENS AT ALL pls. stand in my shoes. understand my plight BEFORE U START A MOTION.THE WORLD DOES NOT REVOLVE AROUND U. PLEASE SPARE A THOUGHT FOR OTHERS .

ya.. i tihnk thats all i been had thinking today.

Kaleidoscopic Personality - Dulan

2007-10-24T18:03:00.000+08:00

small post b4 my guitar lesson.

firstly, wenxun said hi to me twice today. lol.

den.. during the HMT supplementry, im please to annouce that i have official CURBED MY TEMPER. i din shout at Mr ang. woohoo. considering he shouted at me twice, and base on my last time behaviour, that would have turn out worse. =) dedicate this to the previous teachers i have infuriated, including Mrs Purohit and Mdm Noelle Wee.

hai.. den go home tt time see van weiting and jiwei. they.. are like what i was last time. before i went through all this. i did change.. cant say for the worse or better, but really, if u all go to my April or March post, i think i have fufilled my Decree of Slience for consecutively...1.5 months?

talked abt the old times...and BENJAMIN. I. Dont. Have. BGR. Relationship. With. Her. get this straight. what makes u thinking that way anyway.

futhermore, if u really dont wan to solve this, or reduce the awkwardness between us, u might consider tell me abt it. it may be what u have heard, misconception and such. BUT U HAVE NO RIGHT TO TAKE AWAY MY FRENS. i have let u gotten ur way, but if this continues, cant sae what else i will do. i have asked u TRICE, about whats wrong. u TRICE said nth is wrong. really. i gave up on u. feeling irritated abt it alr. soon begin to plan my counter attack. turning all your friends against you. u cant imagine how devious my Kaleidoscopic - Devilish personality is. =)

the atmosphere is serene at home now. no one except me. independent? =x

and Vanessa is a great fren =x
+felicia
+mx
+val
+jes
+osh +yt +wanni +fish
+a lot of other ppl not frm my class
+wenxun(lol 1st male)

2007-10-23T23:37:00.000+08:00

... abt that song i posted... the lyrics... seem to explain what i done, doing, and gona do. even with this incident, im still gona "ore ga saikou no POWER, FULL TILT". its not worth ruining my entire life over this incident, correct? im still waiting for wenxun to give me the "okay" signal before i take action...

ya. van talk to me abt tt today... and some minor things happened in sch today... cant really say its their fault, van. actually.. i feel like im actually isolating them... ya... so cant really sae they did that on purpose la... =). must think positive..

recently keep gng out wif fel and mx sia. go out until really pokkai liao... =x. met new frens. de caicai, mingjie (i think), lyn, ivan, matthew (duno how 2 spell)... ya.. lyn scary sia.. over frenly. know her 2nd day she ask me go chalet liao. =.=

im practically just waiting for the final yr to pass. sec 4. no regret (no regret life, woohoo. nakushita kotoba) or miss 3e7 as whole.. cause majority has no link wif me... now.. can talk to la.. limited to half of the class. and majority gers. especially i sense increase hatred for some ppl... following fel's advice. dun "tiu tiu tiu"... must " TIuu.... KABABOOM", 1 hit ko.

van also said not to get too attached to frens.. jianan said that to me once too.. but.. i truely wan to place my faith in them. does that mean frens are all but a facade.? fake fake know each other, but actually looting benefits frm each other. thats so... fake. if thats it, i cant do it.

too attached also got bad points... i cant really let them go at this point of time. yes i admit, its better now compared to a month before. im living my life as i wanted it, considering options and such..

blog is my freedom of expression, as van affirmed wif me, my kaleidoscopic personality currently is contempt and resentment in lesson time, den a lingering sense of pity and slight sense of finality when seeing them. i practially, as wenxun said, "let nature take its own course", althought last time i believe Malfurion's "let nature take its own course, guided by our hands", that is. im begining to losen up when wif fel and her frens liao. lol. fel sae me INNOCENT and lyn sae im CUTE. yeah. finally someone appreciates my good points. =)

Life revolves arnd us, not u alone. please. change this self-centered "The world revolves around me" thinking and start thinking abt others. really. this way of thinking disgusts me.

my lack of self confidence arnd them has finally taken its toll, i concluded. and its building back when wif fel and mx and their arcade frens..

and. i dedicate "Distance" to the previous clique i had. and. forgive me for the randomness of the things im blogging. just writing down whatever comes into my mind.

finally. TAMAYURA. ~ listen to it in the Drumania playlist. :)

2007-10-22T23:00:00.000+08:00

Distance

Long Run Party

YOU ARE MY FRIEND
aa, ano hi no yume, ima demo mada wasuretenain deshou?
aah, you still remember the dream we had that day, don't you?
YOUR ARE MY DREAM
aa, hajimete bakka, kimi wa MY LONG LOST FRIEND
aah, we'd just gotten started, you are MY LONG LOST FRIEND
whoa, ima tabidatsu yo!
whoa, it's time to get moving

EVERY DAY, kono saki no SHINE de
EVERY DAY, lit up by the SHINE ahead
I WANNA SEE YOU, hikaru MY SOUL ON FIRE
I WANNA SEE YOU, it lights MY SOUL ON FIRE
kore de miosame no FUN DAYS
but now, we've bid farewell to those FUN DAYS
TO BE THE FUTURE, mezashi TAKE OVER, dakara I'LL DREAM ON
TO BE THE FUTURE,i'll try to TAKE OVER, and that's why I'LL DREAM ON

I'LL GO THE DISTANCE!
mihatteru sora SO FULL
gazing at a sky SO FULL
norikonda STARTING
i'm just now STARTING
ore ga saikou no POWER, FULL TILT!
i'll use by greatest POWER, FULL TILT!

YOU ARE MY FRIEND
aa, ano hi no yume, ima demo mada wasuretenain deshou?
aah, you still remember the dream we had that day, don't you?
YOUR ARE MY DREAM
aa, hajimete bakka, kimi wa MY LONG LOST FRIEND
aah, we'd just gotten started, you are MY LONG LOST FRIEND
whoa, ima tabidatsu yo!
whoa, it's time to get moving

THANK YOU MY FRIEND
aa, ano hi no koto, ima demo mada oboeteru kara
aah, i haven't forgotten what happened on that day
YOU ARE MY DREAM
aa, mou kondo koso mamoru MY WAY
aah, next time i'll protect you MY WAY
whoa, THE DISTANCE

2007-10-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

i discovered an amazing discovery

this discovery is so amazing that im amazed at my own discovery of the amazement of which this discovery had brought to my amazing senses.(btw. this is how ilan's compre exercise sound like.)

NARUTO ANIME HAS HEALING POWERS!

really. i watch back the old episode.. chuunin fight and all those.. and amazingly, my character has recovered. lol. im back to my original self. perhaps i draw characteristics frm naruto's behaviour. =x. " the strange and mythical power to change the other person no matter how little the contact they have beforehand." xD

2007-10-13T18:13:00.001+08:00

yes. my blog is still banned frm my own view. i wonder wtf the filter is doing. c0cked up prolly.

well.. read the latest naruto comic. since im such a KIND, GENEROUS, and MAGNANIMOUS guy, i will share them on my blog =)

ya.. like the guy with the circly cirly guys and wierd piercing, i feel that i too, had grown up through the pain that i had experienced. althought now everything ok liao, the pain i have beared with is really... made me grow. no longer im that naive to believe that people agreed to go out with me cause they want to go out with me. ive change. cant say for the better, but also cant say for the worse. these subtle changes, i also can sense them. but then, for every action theres a cause and reaction. i guess this is the reaction of my sub-conciousness. of course, i did not mature into GOD.. zz. thats too impossble and heretic. =.= guess i will follow what jianan sae also. not exact words but.. these is arnd what he sae. if ppl dun like u den u dun care them. if they talk to u den talk wif them.. i see a lot of changes arnd me.. and will use his advice =)

2007-10-11T20:16:00.000+08:00

posting mdae.

mdae. reached harbour front at 12. zz. met up wif fel and mx and jiale. fel got her pink psp.. zai. DDR game inside. woohoo. went kopitiam eat.. wait for pokjes. den we go arcade parapara.. fel taught me a few moves.. i think. =.= manxuan dance quite good.. and jes.. =.= omg.

den we go sentosa... took a few photos. =)

had a lot of fun.... sea volleyball, beach soccer, and sea drinking.. =x drizzling halfway after we left...

eat bk dinner at outside. sibei song sia.. the wind.. the night breeze..=x we go eat some donuts~ not as nice as i expected.. but ok. den we went home.

2007-10-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

soo.. today is tues.

well...kept my promise. reached there at 2. BUT DEN ALL LATE. grats. went to cine.. walk walk.. see see.. arcade play play... play 5 stages of DDR and 5 stages of ParaPara. z. still not here. walk to herein... walk to the top, den they sae they at cine. walk back. 3pm. yeah. waited for 1 hr...

adapted a new strategy. Listen to music. in that way.. no more "dulan" face... well. i duno la.. i think it works. but not well.. better dne nth. last time is they talk their own i behind walk. thats worse.

told yt quite some things today.. haiya. at least she gets a better view of things.

soo.. after my ONE HOUR of wait, we walk arnd.. and such. im listening to my music. all the way. until arcade. MY Para IMPROVE. thanks to fel's coaching. JESLYNE FAIL MY SONG AGAIN. she gave me 1 free credit though =x. den go watch movie.

TOTAL WASTE OF MONEY. 6.50 AND ALL ARND IS SHOW SOME WEAK PARENTS CRYING AND CRYING. NO KICK. WASTE MONEY. WHAT SUSPENSE. SUSPENE OUR MONEY AWAY NIA. duno who's bright idea hor yt?

after movie jianan emmanuel and taoyee left. duno y the tension all gone. maybe cause dun have the "big group" feeling liao... ya. talk to wx more freely la.. den go eat. chicken wing rice. that was dirty.. wx had.. mix chicken rice wanni and yt had some fried rice or wad. din see what pok and jes ate. val ate some bloody dessert. red bright blood colour. ltr she vampire sia. walk a bit more.. den go home.

oh ya. wanni breast there got a mosquito bite. sibei obvious leh.. zz

maybe wad yt sae is right. both party wan to b back as b4 but den neither of them are willing to make the 1st move. for the party im supporting.. its cause he took the initiative too many times le.. the other party din communicate. need to try ask them sometimes.

Oh ya. got a survey ger thought i 18 yrs old sia. that means i look mature =)

next post den i post abt mdae ba... now no ideas on what to post. not high =.=

Kaleidoscopic - "Average Joe" personality.

2007-10-08T03:21:00.000+08:00

well.. dear blog readers. firstly i wan to apologise to wenxun jianan taoyee and emmanuel for the previous 2 post. now i been shown the truth... ya.. sorry ....well.. i thought... wrongly.. and wenxun cleared everything..im been too reactive and to responsive to wrong advices... cause a lot of mistakes..i believe most of the facts that were placed before me, but none of those were further frm the truth.

and. i would like to dedicate this post to wenkai and shihui also. for mediating the conversation till 4++am. =.=

and yes people, i will be there on tues.

2007-09-16T00:38:00.000+08:00

yar.. today went out la... da gai da gai sae..

morn 7.30. scouts. pioneering. lower sec still needs LOTSA training. GONE. and den.. we had our campfire meeting. anthony ar.. was like giving stupid ideas.. damn funny.. like.. "Theme - Egyptian". he give title is.. Camels in Egypt. WTF? burst out luffing...

den i pei hair meet wx ty.... walk arnd. taoyee buy bag.. lol. i REMAIN FIRM ON MY STAND. I DUN LIKE RECTANGULAR BAGS. which ty bought a brown rect de.. Zinc bodoh. den we go arcade lo.. after my mum brought me a very old de shirt. cannot take it. went home to change and came back meet wx and jiale.

somewhat play drum for the whole night.. den 9+ took 58 go ty hse.. at first very apprehsive la... but turn out ok.. after talking to kenny in the bus interchange. and after my slipper spoil and after my foot tio injure. wooho. kenny manage to shed some light on most things that i were...MISGUIDED. yeah.. thats the word.... looking forward to better days. 1stly need to get my point across to taoyee they all 1st.. wx and kenny settle liao. =x

2007-09-10T17:21:00.001+08:00

okok.. finally. a new post. NO SCAMs. osh u shuld b happi le.

soo...reccently, like on the friday that just passed, i wx lam went shopping at bugis... bugis st. i was like wtf? wad were they talking abt. ok la sorry i noob. i buy clothes den buy frm bugis st, i buy frm Herein (duno how spell) and Quilksilver....sorry la... bugis de arcade nt bad sia, 2 drums,10th and V2. and I FOUND A "ASIAN KUNGFU GENERATION" song.. featured in the Drumania playlist in my blog.. RAITO - ASIAN KUNGFU GENERATION. ZAI. woohoo. im falling in love wif V2.

wx came my hse.. den we took 80 there. VAGUELY remember can go.. tt time take 80 to bugis fer converse sale.. but i scared route change and such... den got off and aljunied and pia mrt over. go arcade... wait for lam. lam also take 80 sia. den suddenly call me ask 80 gt reach bugis anot. he scared.. he thought HE LOST. den he panic. ahahaha... in the end he wan sua cool... sae wad stood calm in face of danger tts why reached bugis safely... =.=... den we went bugis st.

there clothes there ok-ok la.. but hor, got 1 thing to say. IF U OLD, PLS DUN WEAR TEENS DE CLOTHES. IT WILL TURN THEM OFF. SERIOUSLY. ( no serious jokes pls.)... we went a shop, the clothes there zai... but the UNCLE, 50++ yrs old also WEAR THEM. OMG.... we walk like a few rounds, den bought a few clothes lo. wx bought shirt+pants... i bought 2 shirt, lam bought shorts. i think i starting to regret buying 2 black shirt liao... zz.

den we went the newly(?) opened food court at top floor. tt time work at converse there still shopping place de... there got PEPPER LUNCH SIA. i wan eat, but bor lui.. buy 1 shirt still have to borrow frm wx... zz... den talk crapps, and went home.. oh ya. otw home i and lam saw 2 3-5 yr old boys... they were reading the Bus Guide.. and like wan to get to somewhere, and were identifying landmarks.. look damn independent la.. told lam that surely got adult one... he dun believe sia. but i right, as always =x.... if onli i and my bro can like that... haixx. he acts like that age though...

Wenxun's attempts to be a Sexy and Alluring Model. he starts first by imitating the mouth.

Well, the effect was suppose to make lam look bigger den me and more Stylo, but hes head was too small. fits with his GF eh osh?

This was the 2 kids trying to identify the surroudings. bus guide bodoh...like a reflection of myself... =.=

2007-09-02T23:05:00.001+08:00

DEDICATED TO OSH.

updated.

2007-08-24T19:55:00.000+08:00

in the classroom, devoid of emotions, will this two people blaze alight with love? the pain, the tension, the suspence.. looking forward to this movie =)

few random photos we took cause have nth better to do.

look at the picture on the back of the car. it says No Fat Chicks. luckily osh isnt fat. but she hates the driver for putting that though. look at her obscene gesture.

7o7. or inverse LoL. =.=

2007-08-20T17:46:00.001+08:00

My life.

how to live on with my life. now a days like whatever i do someone will confirm buey song one. for that reason alone i have am lost. lost about how to living on my life. someone guide me..

recalling the sec 2 days. those time i enjoyed. but.. then i have also hurt ppl unknowningly. dun wish for those to suffer under my happiness, but im suffering under their happiness now. im pathetic.

i just cant fit in anywhere. perhaps im more suited to be a loner... the feeling of being alone frightens me, but also seems to embrace me lovingly....

2007-08-15T22:57:00.001+08:00

lol feeling rather bored.. so koped this frm YI JUAN's blog. see i got credit my source de.

A: Gorgeous
B: Loves people
C: Really easy to fall in love with
D: Is great in bed
E: easy to fall in love with
F: People wild and crazy adore you
G: Never let people tell you what to do
H: Freakin' beautiful eyes
I: Loves to laugh
J: Makes people laugh
K: Really silly
L: BEST SMILE
M: Makes dating fun
N: Sexy
O: Has one of the best personalitiesever
P: Popular with all types of people
Q: A hypocrite
R: Good bf/gf
S: easy to be loved with
T: Great kisser
U: Gets blamed for everything
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Never let people tell you what to do
Y: Loved by everyone
Z: Lives life for fun

hmm? got include full name anot? just in case..

K: Really silly ( when im in the mood that is..)

O: Has one of the best personalities ever. ( thats good.)

H: Freakin' beautiful eyes. ( felicia made me notice this 1st.)

F: People wild and crazy adore you (nvr encounter this b4)

E: easy to fall in love with ( hmm.. test this out?)

N: Sexy ( stella also says this abt me)

G: Never let people tell you what to do (amen to that)

R: Good bf/gf (see this chiobus out there. means im a good choice =x)

O: Has one of the best personalities ever. (that makes TWO best personalities ever)

N: Sexy. ( yes. doubly sexy.)

G: Never let people tell me what to do ( this explains why im so.. err.. aggresive =)

lol. semi-accurate la.. lolx.

2007-08-11T20:41:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i guess long time i have blogged abt my life.

soo. on wed, cross country thingy, i and ys slacked entirely throughout the way. wat checkpoint duty.. thor nvr tell ys. so like.. slack the whole way la. and omg. saw someone taking pictures of boys that receive the prize. is she really that despo?

den we went wenxun hse.. wash up and prepare to go to watch movie. ... wash sibei long lar. den go lo.. late. Secret is nice sia, especially the Piano battle.. worth watching. 4.5/5.

den boys split wif gers.. gers go wanni hse.. boys... left wif nth to do again. hang arnd a while.. den go my hse. we still gt guitar after tt after all.... den go arcade... feel a bit unqueasy.. den left fer home early.

day 2 : thurs

ok.. its rather boring... so met out yt and osh... the rest cannot be revealed in due time... but.. i think i can show a few photos

look at this 2 stars. not clear.. but the bottom on is yt do one. so out of shape la

look at this 3 star again. middle one looks most normal. osh do one. the rest yt do de.

diff angle of the previous photo

my 1st achievement of completing 6 hearts in a role. im getting gd at this. yt and osh teach me better la.. got patturn of folding.. not like lam. duno teach wad sai

was trying to take the sky when yt's absurdly long fingers got into the picture.

and we had pepper lunch for dinner. omg. the food nice sia... but ex... zz. saw manxuan there wif.. amamda or who... manxuan looks scary sia....

rest was.. pretty much not worth mentioning..

day 3-4 : fri and sat.

well.. ben lai plan everything good good de.. but got a few changes la. go ty hse watch naruto-transformer or wad crap.. den rape each other again on the way... ya. leg de wound open up again.. zzz..

den go kovan eat dinner... yt and jen. zz.. luffing at how i eat big mac.. den we go buy char bdae
pressie.. and go drum 2 rounds. den all went home, i lam and kj go eugene hse overnite.... for me it was quite last minute.. hope they dun mind =x... bought a few tibits and go there lo... walk to his door, den call his hp. no answer. call fer 6-7 times. pek chek liao. ben lai thought he parents slping... dun wan wake his parents up....in the end we just rang the doorbell. eugene popped out sia. kia tio. den walk in... parents nt at home. =.=... so.. its the entire night of DOTA+NARUTO+ slight bleach. and lam and eugene was pudge-waring... i was playing o2jam, audition and checking out SG maps in maple.... till next morn.

NEXT MORN. 8.30. i 6.30 got try to wake eugene le.. he slp like PIG sia. no matter how i move him he cont slping de... no choice. i BLAST my phone music in his room.. he really wake up sia. i knew it. im a genious. den we went down play pool... as in snooker. cant believe it. i won a lot of matches sia. all base on luk and accidental mishaps by lam and eugene. lol.... went back his hse.. dota pudgywars and hero seige.. all craps games till 4pm. den go meet wx...like 45 minutes late....den go amk drum.. 1 credit is enough to make my hand muscle ache like siao liao... zzz... den... ( RESTRICTED CONTENT ). and we went home.

2007-08-02T16:31:00.000+08:00

strangly, but not surprisingly, the mood is happier without me... i guess my role partaking in this is over then.

2007-07-22T23:16:00.001+08:00

Firstly, more photos

the serenity of civilisation..

i look a bit funny here.

woo.. nice photo

the front 3 are action emo.

well.. guess i will blog for this wkend.

both sirs arrived this sat. a miracle, and the facts of their AP relationship. why did they have to arrive SIMULTIOUSLY? thats seems very out of place.

den, while the lower secs are stupidly trying to find things frm A-Z, sec 3 are having PLC.... the MIA ppl finally returned sia. and IM NOT IN LOGISTIC OR ADMIN. wooHOO!. i have a seperate post by myself, which is, Displine Master.. of SCOUTS. =.= so its up to me... xD

den go my hse... read a few Fullmetals, play Burnout, den go kovan. sit and yoshi, kope free icecream, den go play drum. WTF. 1st time ever, i failed a 2nd stage. Breakdown summore. wtf.? after tt, eat dinner... go back drum... den walk to hougang again. just rained la.. so air was quite damn. the atmosphere also a bit wierd.. so lam and i din take that... sch path. still.. i feel smth eerie la.. like very hazy in front... or it seems darker den usual...but safely made it out. den go sit sit... talk talk.. crap crap... osh osh... err.. the person i like cannot sae. ltr she come see.. and listen music lo.. den go pool, which den lam gtg. sent me to the bus stop, which i ran after the bus.. and went home.

sun. wake at 9.15am. its an improvement..of 15 mins. zz. can i slp later anot. whos the person up there controlling what time i wake up. pls adjust it to arnd 12++ LEH. zzz... watch spongbob.. some crap shows, den try to slp till afternoon again. shawn came at 1.30, zz... den tuition till 3.15. slacker leh he. den dota wif pok lam and lams. lampa and lanjiaos. templar assasin is zai la. -8 amr + (- 6 amr) = -14 amr. wtf. few hits KO-ed. love me tender love me sweet, love me as i am =). si pudge keep rotting...appear den i die liao

den go study wif lam. im proud to announce that.. i gona fail my chem. i forgot how 2 do calculations sia~!!! physics still gona ace it. den.. cause we 2 duno how 2 do.. den beside us got a small tuition group. lam wanted to ask her.. but den, sibei gang kar la.. den plus lam ji xiao her.. haix. ehh. plus i saw sometime that LOOKED LIKE jin han today.. dun dare call her sia.. duno issit her anot. eh jin han. did u go kovan mac today sia.... den ltr sibei sian and homework sick.. den go play drum lo. lam failed a 4th stage.. the duno what tears or wad de. and i try a new BeForU song. BeForU rocks sia... den walk home.

2007-07-19T18:08:00.000+08:00

You have your mindset of thinking and i have mine. today was an exemplary example.

One more point to go to why i should change.

Really dont wan to be reminded of the facts.. but Van and Fel.. cant blame them.. they are of an neutral party..

Soon.. things will change. tomorrow will be an obvious reason.

2007-07-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

This is the new song of Naruto's ending. compliments to the artist.

Daitai itsumo doori ni Just as usual,

Sono kado wo magareba when I turn around that corner,

Hitonami ni magire komi I merge into the sea of people

Tokete kieite iku and melt away into nothing

Boku wa michi wo takushi I lose myself completely,

Kotoba sura nakushite shimau and can find no words to say.

Dakedo hitotsu dake wa Yet, one thing, your voice

Nokotteta, nokotteta Kimi no koe ga still remains, still remains

Warau kao mo, okoru kao mo subete Everything about you, your smile, your anger...

Boku wo arukaseru keeps me walking forward.

Kumo ga kireta saki wo Mitara kitto If I just look up, where the clouds start to break..

Nee, wakaru deshou? (Nee, wakaru deshou?) I think you know what I mean.

Aimai ni ikiteite mo (This part i duno... haven tio translate...zzz)

Kokoro ga mijuku demo

Sore de ii hora soko ni wa

Daiji na hito ga iru

Kimi ga mayou no nara

Boku ga michishirube ni narou

Ato wa shinjireba ii

Tashikameru sube wa motta

Osore nai de

Hikari atsume sora ni hanatte iru

Kimi ni wakaru you ni

Soshite ayumu michi wo

Motto tera sou

Doko made mo... (Doko made mo... x3)

Kami・koe・kuchi・yubisaki he todoke

Ima dake demo ii (Ima dake demo ii)

BTw.. sorry jes again fer ps-ing u...

2007-07-15T09:27:00.001+08:00

woo.. got smth interesting to blog abt.

ytd, lam and i went night walk again..... tried to find scary places... den walk frm kovan till hougang again. walk walk walk.. den walk to his bro de sch dere.. theres a path, but sibei wulu... its one straight road, but right side is forest, left side is the sch, but a lot of bushes.. wo.. quite scary sia. we walk in... but lam sense smth.. den like, he did something to portray his fear, but i din get it. o.O... den cont walking. i also sense smth on the left la... while he did on the right.. walk walk walk.... den suddenly got rustling in the trees. he shouted WTF and ran. i tio shocked, but see he run den i also run =.=..... and that time was onli 9++... but really, sibei wulu.. duno next time dare to go in again anot... xD

2007-07-12T19:37:00.000+08:00

i can sense someone shooting me on msn liao... indirectly..

cant believe its him although. maybe its not refering to me.. but.. quite obvious eh.?

den, forgot to tell another him not to spread... now everyone that was not supposed to know knew le... and thats even worse.. to me.

live life on which it was supposed to be. btw. thanks to van+val+felicia+shihui+yuting+ziyu+wanni+jennifer+3e7+suprisingly, teachers. they help to get my mind of things by boring lessons...

2007-07-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

haix. duno how.. duno y.. another matter surface. and without my knowledge or knowing.. wtf.? ... hell comes knocking on heaven's door. so how? activate self-defensive system lo..

enough by all of that chim things.. sch sibei sian sia.. but its the company thats keep me going.. my class : felicia val van jeslyne pok anthia jolene yisen jonathan jiale.. actually a lot la.. but lazy name all. den.. after sch gt wx mao lam taoyee ys kenny yimei... sometimes gt yt sh ziyu wanni val... how 2 sae.. its these peep that keeps the engine gng....

still gt wad crap... err.. oh ya. EDWARD AND ALPHONESE ROCKS. frm full metal alchemist.. anyone got epi 5 onwards can lend me xD?

sch getting more and more similar everyday.. almost like an endless limbo... and tml maths journal test, thurs O'lvl oral.. friday HOLIDAY... looking forward to fri.

2007-07-07T23:27:00.001+08:00

ok. so this is quite a mark in history..

i can play 5 extreme songs.. well cant say much for the outcome, but i passed all.

Libra

Believe in Love

Innocent World ( o.m.g. )

Home Girl

The wierd ultraman song.

Black Sheep

Da Qie wad wad wad... jap title..

and wx S-ed believe in love and Libra sia..zzz.. and he can play BreakDown..

Kenny passed his 1st Extreme song... on his 3rd credit in his entire life.. Libra.

and Lam is still play basic.. on his 2nd credit.. i think.

2007-07-05T18:21:00.000+08:00

MOVING OUT.

2007-07-02T21:20:00.000+08:00

aiya. i one time post for 3 days la. save time and posts...

sat. scouts. ok la. i foot drill master..ahaha... dun wan elaborate also. very. depressing. z. our troop gone case le. den we go eat oppos, and went to my hse. lam met us halfway, and yisen left us halfway. zzz. den lam and mao stay below, while i go up change. lam headache, mao dun feel like moving..zz .den we go my hse wait for xun.. and play naruto. gave lam a panadol, and mao was there TRYING to unlock yondaime. again. i play guitar... and soo.. tts arnd it. den i take the controller and challenge mao lo.. while xun was waiting 45 mins at kovan. den we go kovan play a while drum den go home lo. after waiting for wx bus to arrive, ben lai wan walk home, den my bro call me buy this buy tt... z. i go buy. den taoyee suddenly tell me he eating at punggol 21. lol. den walk over tok tok 2 him... and thats all fer tt day.

sun. got tuition fer tt day, but arranged to go out alr liao. mao and xun went kovan drum again, while lam still have headache.... ok. he din meet wif them, but i managed to persuade him out la.. so he went wif me at 4. go there liao, still gt ppl there. den we go cold storage...buy chicken. lol. sit outside QI Liang... den mao gtg. i xun and lam go back arcade, persuade lam to play but he dun wan..headache. den nvm.... wait for ppl play finish den play. BUT.. one of the players was just 4-6 yrs old.. and he wearing hood. when he play Innocent World, he wore his hood. same colour, which made him seem hes inside spinning.. lol. so farni la. den we pei wx to bus stop... and den we go eat dinner. eat... den tok tok tok...till KFC close sia. den ben lai wan challenge him walk scary place..so we walk the wulu wulu place at the back of my hse... overshot, and pei him lo.. reach the splitting junction, lam suddenly feel like going the scary park at his hse dere.. err.. i on. den we both make call, den walk down to the park. the park initially looks scary.. but we tok until like so peaceful sia. got a few scary ppl on the way la.. like gt 1 duno do what.. fishing fer smth in the river wif a net or smth...den lam show me a hole.? or smth.. err. also feeling quite spooked out.. =.= . den walk back. ..... which, LAM FELT SMTH.... a cold chill or smth, which i din feel. shudder...den we walk a while more den we went home. xun worried sia. den so mani ppl sms over. lol.

mdae, its onto vivo city. told lam to PUNCTUALLY reach serangoon at 12.. he really did, but others late. lol. go mac.. eat lunch, and den onto vivo. SAW SHAUN WIF VAL...woots. headline news.. den go vivo buy ticket. all ps sia, onli i good. pei taoyee. haix. den xun and lam go eat... we go see sea view... den everyone come join us sia. den go watch movie.. very action. but no storyline..zz. die hard 4.0. den go buy dinner lo.. LGS, den go watch sea view again. lol. ok la.. dun regret or wad.. the Chocolate Thingy also nice =). den we sing song.. lol. lame. den do a few pervert stuff, and go home liao lo..thats all.

few things to sae.

Joshua : UR DEAD. EVERYTIME I SEE U I GONA MAKE U PUMP OUT MY NAME. AND IN STANDARD PUMPING>

Mao : z dun go zibi la. come out wif us la.

Lam : headache 2 days sia. nt bad. but 2nd day very shuang sia. wan to do it again.... and pls. wad i tell u dun tell others.... =.=.

Xun : Whats up, China ger, Ye~Yi~mei, Whats up China ger...

Taoyee : u finally can come out sia.. zz. punggol nasilemak. =.=

xun+lam : Innocent world.. woots~

Shihui : LOL. remember wad u told me on sunday afternoon.?

ya.. i think thats all.

2007-06-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

very lil to sae fer today.

GER GUIDES SUCK. WTF. their senior even left a note in the "things to do list" saying that. "if the scouts side of the room is dirty please ask them to clean it up" wtf.? are we really that untidy inconsisently?

and their primitive way of cooking food. THERES AN INVENTION CALLED THE STOVE..??

scouts today was pure torture. physically for the lower secs and mentally for the upper secs.

and Joshua and Zi Quan learnt how 2 spell my name today.

ya. thats all.

2007-06-28T18:41:00.001+08:00

ARG. ILAN's TYRANTNESS.

had 4 perios of eng today. and its was 2 periods of debate, 2 period of compre + summary. BORING!!!!!!!!

den duno why i became sibei tired... not dulan, not sick, not giddy. just tired... eyes keep feeling like closing. mental strain. zzz cant remember much on wad happen, but ate at oppos and went to kovan cut hair. ty and yiyong emo went off by themselves, and den kenny went home cook dinner. kuangjun went off find other ppls. den the rest, me xun lam mao go walk walk lo. saw ms fu at cold storage cause of mao's 6th sense, den go arnd walk walk. bought smth at the BBq section, den go sit n eat. oh ya. at the supermarket field trip, we were making all kinds of lame jokes....=.=

go buy bubble tea, and lam's stunt of repeating his mistake, where he WOAH, nearly drop his bubble tea, den WOAH again, squash his bubble tea. white stuff squirted out and splashed on his face. he had vanilla bubble tea. WHAT WERE U ALL THINKING!!!... z. den his bubble tea dripped white milky stuff all over the floor... looks wrong and sounds wrong. but its meant to be that way :)

sian. everyday like so wasted.

2007-06-26T22:36:00.001+08:00

btw. i finally can remove that weight of my heart. that of my bro and that of my previous post. sadly to say, i love that song that was on my blog. but i promise someone that i would change that song if everything is ok liao... and i truely wan everything to be ok le.. soo.. heres to that promise and that relationship between them. :)